Tied by fate ~ Ereri / Riren {Omegaverse}

31. This is Reality.

reality
/rɪˈalɪti/
noun
1.the state of things as they actually exist, as opposed to an idealistic or notional idea of them.

2.the state or quality of having existence or substance.

Eren;
"Me. He's afraid of me."

"N-no! Eren, that's not what it is. He's scared because he hasn't seen you in so long and he thinks everything has changed. Levi was never loved until he met you, and since you were gone for so long, he was worried you wouldn't love him anymore."

"Hanji, he's scared of me. D-did you see the way he looked at me? He didn't even recognise me! Grisha's made me into a monster and now Levi will never look at me the same. I've become the one thing I was always scared of being - a monster. A-a vampire."

The way he looked at me when he first saw me in that room made my heart ache. I could physically feel the pain my heart wished to inflict on me. Seeing Levi look at me like he didn't know who I was anymore, broke me. I felt exactly the same way about myself. Who even am I anymore?

"Eren, what are you going to tell him? You can't hide this kind of thing from Levi, especially if you're not the only one who know. If the one person he loves breaks his trust, his unleash his inner beast and they'll be no bringing him back. And who were those people calling you 'sir' and 'prince'? What's really going on here?"

"It's hard to explain. It's a long story. Levi and I, this isn't our first life. We're humans created for a purpose, who will re-live until we both fulfil that purpose. I have no idea what that purpose is. But somewhere along the way the demons changed things, now we're stuck in a repetitive cycle that ends in a consequence that shatters Levi, but he never remembers in his next life. But from what I've heard and seen, I always do."

"What happens, Eren?"

"I-I die. To be exact, I die at the hands of Levi every time in a large battle between demons and angels. And of course, Levi and I, have a forbidden love. The angel and demon hounds, one born to be good, one born to be evil. B-but my father kept referring to me as 'the saviour' and something about Levi being a 'great evil'."

"H-he kills you? Every time?"

Seeing the way Hanji reacts to the news, made telling Levi seem even more daunting than it did before. It'll break him, and I don't want to break the one thing I love so deeply. I'd give my life for him, because he deserves everything. He deserves more than I can give him, and if being killed by him allows him to be happy in every life we live, I'd do it for eternity.

"He's always manipulated by someone. In our previous life, I became ill, crazy, almost. I was clearly having flashbacks to our lives before that. It caused Levi a lot of pain, and it allowed him to be manipulated. Kuchel made him hate me, want to kill me. And he did."

"This illness, did it cause you to always be telling Levi you'll never get your happy ending?"

"Yes. And I'm scared it's true. If we never fulfil this purpose, we'll always be stuck in this cycle. I'll always die. Levi will never remember. We'll be forced to live the life we never wanted."

It hurt to say it all out loud. To admit this is how we live. Who would've guessed that me getting out of the taxi that day, would begin all of this. Seeing Levi for the first time would lead to discovering our forbidden love. Learning who killed my mother. Being awakened and meeting Sasha. All of this, caused by a simple business meeting between Levi and mikasa.

"M-mikasa. How... how is she?"

"She's not great. We lost contact with her when Levi informed her of your death."