our let it be ( Katsudeku)

7

Denying something that is painfully obvious was like dodging water rain drops without umbrella.  Certainly stupid and absolutely a waste of time, and especially effort.

Izuku likes to think he is not that really dense, nor naïve. He knew what he really has for the blonde male that used to be his most favorite and best playmate. He knew the name of this said feelings, even before tenko came into his life.

It was just that, he knew he doesn't stand a chance.

The guy hated his guts so much that he didn't seems to bother checking his words towards izuku, when he said that if the smaller male was so desperate to have a quirk, he probably should take a swam dive from the roofs and pray he'll have a quirk on the next life.

He knew the world is unfair and that it will never be fair. If only he can direct his feelings towards tenko, he would. He knew the man was so much deserving of this feelings instead of bakugou.

Yes, its bakugou now , not kacchan since its very painful to call him that. It makes unwanted memories appeared once more. Memories that will make him wish something he knew foolish.

He knew he can't forced himself to like tenko , the way tenko likes him so he shrugged it off. Besides, nothing changes with their relationship anyway. Tenko is still being tenko, the sweet and gentle friend izuku have. There was no room for awkwardness since tenko doesn't let it happen.

He acted as if he didn't asked to court the greenette.  As if things were like before , well except for the fact that he does not seems to shower much gift to izuku, since the smaller male doesn't want to anyway.

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Few days had passed, izuku found himself at the  takoba seaside bay, cleaning tons and tons of trash everyday as much as he can.

What was he doing in such place?

Simple,it was because of all might who had insist he should start his training before the entrance exam since he only have 10 months.

Yes, it was because of his idol. A few days before, the day bakugou crashed his heart and dreams, he met all might shortly after a the bullying incident. His idol saved him from such sludged villain.

Imagine his happiness,and suprise upon waking up and the first thing he saw was his idol's face. Since the blonde seems to be in a hurry, izuku crazily held into the taller male's legs when he lifted up into the air.

Crazy,yes he knew but he was far too desperate to hear his idol's opinion towards his situation. Towards his dreams which everyone kept on saying to him that is impossible.he was his only hope, he needs to hear his idol say to his face if his dream is possible, or not.

He has so much faith towards the blond hero. Hoping that the other can see him. Hoping that he'll save izuku from his dull and dark future.  He need all might to be his light in the dark, to guide him , to tell him that the path he wants to take is possible. He needs to hear it from him, that quirkless or not, it doesn't matter. That as long as he have a heart of gold and the want to help and save people, it will be enough to be a hero.

But then, he didn't expect those words coming out from the man he worshipped. Okay, scratched that ,HD kind of expected but he wasn't just that ready to hear the impact of those freakin words. Words that might be simple but enough to shatter no only his heart but his whole world.

"Be realistic" 

Yeah maybe he was just too much hopeful that all might will save him. But maybe he was just asking too much. It hurts, he can't deny that. It was way way worse , ten times worse,painful ,you name it than the time that the doctor told him he's quirkless.

He wanted to hate the man down to his very core but he knew he can't. Somewhere in his heart, he understood why all might crushed his heart into million pieces. Maybe its for his own good too. Maybe he does needs to hear those things so he could finally wake up from his illusion. To finally stop the 'ifs' and the 'I can do it.'

He was surprise though. To find himself speechless. He thought he would cry endless amount of tears but unfortunately, he can't bring himself to cry.He felt empty, hollow and pretty much speechless. It was the kind of pain that instead of hurting, it makes you feel like a huge piece of you was torn away from your soul.

After a long day of saved by all might, talk with all might , tried to save his former best friend from a sludge villain,  here he was, standing face to face again with the skeleton form of all might, saying he had acknowledge izuku's selflessness after he what he witness with the sludge villain.

If he thought about it, all might was kind of hypocrite, that was what a small part of him whispered.

"You can be a hero".  

He wasn't singing the same tune before, but here he was, standing in front of him saying he's worthy of his power. Yes, of course izuku cried when he heard those words he was dying to hear from those who are around him. It felt good, more than refreshing, but somewhere in his insides screams hatred at the man for being hypocrite.  For the sudden change of his mind. Like what would all might do if he found out that izuku was feeling a bit of wanting to give up in life in general after his be realistic speech he gave him.

Does it really need for him to risk his life , trying to save his former friend turn into a bully, for all might to see his potential? Sure, not everyone would have the balls to save anyone from danger since there's the human instincts of self -preservation.

Either way, izuku locked the voice down into his very core. Took the key away and made sure it will never be opened. Its the unpretty side of him that whispers unpretty things in his mind.

He wouldn't let it poison him e specially now that he's only one step closer to his dream.