Amentia - K.NJ.

Twenty-One

Two days had gone by to where there hadn't been another word about Jungkook mentioned around me. I had been watching the kids the whole time, Taehyung not being available to help me with Jinkyong most of the time. Namjoon helped me around some, but he had to keep the show in order. We had to delay one show due to the Jungkook situation, so he had to plan a new time and day to perform before we could leave the city for good.

The whole time while Jungkook was being put into place, I couldn't help but think of the future. A new addition to our show would put a new strain on for a performance. I didn't know how Jungkook would act, but I had a feeling it was going to be high maintenance work. The way the guys had discussed him before sounded as if they were building a whole new human, a whole new, unstable animal to watch over.

It didn't settle right with me. A sickening feeling of Jungkook becoming something new didn't sound good. I didn't know what the guys wanted to be the product, but I never knew with them anyways. They had a mind of their own, but I could understand that. I was more of a sympathizer than the rest of them. Yes, I did have some cold in my heart, but theirs were more encased and permanent. They took initiative, though it did cloud their visual reality from time to time.

I just hoped they made the right choice.

I felt a hand land on my shoulder, causing me to jump a little in surprise. I turned my head around to see who was there.

Seokjin looked down at me, a small grin on his lips. His black hair was becoming wild from it being long, bags hanging under his dark brown eyes. He was dressed in baggy clothes to keep out the cold like the rest of us. I knew I had been wearing sweatpants and sweatshirts on the daily once the autumn time was starting to kick in.

"Did I scare you?" he asked, raising an eyebrow at me. He let his hand fall from my shoulder, shoving it into his pockets for warmth.

I smiled back at him, pulling myself up from the small box I had been sitting on. I shook my head a little as I gave a laugh, my sweatpants brushing against the dead grass below. "You kind of did."

"You looked a bit zoned out there," he said, a small chuckle coming out with it. "Were you thinking?"

I gave a shrug. "More or less."

Seokjin gave a small sigh, nodding in return as he turned his eyes to look at the scene in front of us. Hoseok was with the kids in a little, plastic pen that was a clear barrier. Jinkyong was giggling while Insu smiled to himself, each having a small mouse in their hands. Hoseok had brought his mice out to play to keep the kids busy. I was grateful. Keeping them entertained and in line for the past couple of days was becoming tiring without the guys to help.

"How about you come with me," Seokjin said quietly, nodding his head towards the trailers. We were near the circus tent at the moment. I tried to stay clear of the trailers so I wouldn't have to think about Jungkook.

I raised an eyebrow at him, cocking my head to the side. I became curious. Seokjin wasn't one to say something like that so seriously. "What's up?"

"I think you should come to see something. Namjoon thinks it's a good idea," he said, no longer one of his happy smiles on his face like always. He was serious and plain, which was unlike him.

"Alright," I said slowly, started to walk towards the trailers. I didn't mind leaving the kids behind. They were with Hoseok, and besides, I didn't know what was going to be shown.

Seokjin came to be in front of me, leading us down the alleyway of the trailers. Our feet crunched the dead grass and leaves below, the clouds dimming the sky. I could feel that rain was coming soon enough. It suddenly made me miss the summer where I would let the kids run outside in the rain as I would search for rainbows if there was a chance. I missed those days.