Blurry is the Line Between Love and Lust: A Tears of Shame Novel [EDITING]

Chapter 33: Haven't You Done Enough

Ok... so here is chapter 33... I hope you like it! 

It is basically a reaction to the big revelation ...

PLEASE VOTE & COMMENT... ALL OF YOU:) I'm starting to get discouraged.  

I'm having trouble writing the last chapter... I have even written the epilogue, but the last chapter ( the one before it ) eludes me...

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Recap chap 32:

"I don't know... I'm sorry, I just don't know." I was crushed by the thought and I saw that he was as well. I gently caressed his long dark hair, as he lay unmoved, rested atop my bulging belly. Tears flowed freely from his wounded eyes.

"It hurts so much to think..." He stopped his sentiment. I felt his pain as though it were my own. It had been mine, for 4 months and I selfishly shared it with him.

We lay there silently, unmoved, engulfed in our misery until sleep overtook us.

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Chapter 33: Haven't You Done Enough

Xavier POV

I was decimated by Aria's painful revelation. To think that my own brother could have been so cruel as to force himself on anyone, let alone my wife, was more than I could have wrapped my head around. He could have had anyone he wanted, why would he have forced himself on her? She was so kind and loving. She cared for everyone. She was generous and selfless. What kind of monster had he become?

The agony gripped me relentlessly. There was no way I could have escaped it. When she said it happened the day after our wedding, I thought I would have lost my senses completely. The baby may not have even been mine. I felt as if my body exploded in pain, my heart a mere shell of what it once was. If it wasn't my child, how could I have lived with that? How could she have lived with that for so long?

All that anguish and suffering ripped her apart. I saw it in her eyes. She lived through more in her short life than anyone could have ever imagined. The thought that it was Ronan's baby made me furious. I was determined to find my father and seek my vengeance. I'd gone to speak to the King against Aria's adamant refusal to request punishment for my brother's horrendous transgression.

"Father," I bowed in respect and hoped I could implore him to have understood the situation without being too detailed.

"Ronan has done something terrible to Arianna. He needs to be punished by death." I demanded. The fury I held back the night before had shown itself fully on my face.

"Xavier, what has he done? Surely it can't be that egregious a crime as to warrant death?" The King responded in his cold, dark tone. He pushed his long white hair aside to meet my desperate glare. I really hadn't wanted to go into the specifics. I wanted to push it out of my mind, deny that it had happened, that way I wouldn't have to have seen the gruesome images my mind conjured. But, my father was the King and he demanded answers.

"He..." I searched for the words but had a hard time letting them escape me. How could I have laid out her pain and shame for all to have seen? I knew how she had felt about people knowing what Gabriel had done, this was 100 times worse. She would have been the subject of pity and scandal, yet again. But this was something I could not have let go of. I wanted him dead for what he had done.

"He... violated her." I responded in shame, shook the image out of my head. All I saw was him, as he touched her, hurt her, and forced her. It made me ill. The agony of the thoughts was maddening.