Blurry is the Line Between Love and Lust: A Tears of Shame Novel [EDITING]

Chapter 20: Lost Control

*****This chapter may contains scenes of a sexual nature, and/ or scenes of violence. Please be advised.*****

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 Recap chap 19:

"I'll miss you too, but I'll only be gone a day. You should rest up; you'll need your strength when I return. Being away from you for a whole day is sure to drive me wild with desire." It was true. I would have ravaged her body when I returned. Just the thought of it made me want her more. I kissed her and left to prepare for my business trip.

A Prince's work was never done.

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 Chapter 20: Lost Control

 

Arianna POV

 I lay in my bed and thought of Xavier's touch, his kisses and wished he held me in his strong arms. I missed him and I wanted him home. I needed to see him. We couldn't have been apart like this. It wasn't even a day and I felt the loss. I heard a creak at the door. I thought he had returned early.

 

Excitement over whelmed me when I turned and searched for him. I hadn't expected to find the eyes that peered back at me. They were deep violet. I knew those eyes well, but there was something different about them. There was something in them that I just couldn't place. He approached me slowly, almost hauntingly.

 

"Ronan, look, I'm sorry. I know I hurt you. I never wanted to do that. What I said, it was cruel, but it's true. I still care about you, but I don't love you anymore. I love Xavier. He is my life now. I hope you can understand. I'm sorry." I confessed. I tried to convey the regret and shame I felt over breaking his heart. I stood nervously before him, uncertain of how he would have reacted.

 

He was before me in a flash. He squeezed my face roughly and smashed his lips to mine. He forced my mouth open to accept his tongue. I struggled to release myself from his strong grasp.

 

"Get the hell off me! What are you doing?" I screamed into his lips then kneed him in his manhood. Not heard enough apparently, because he had only backed away inches. His lips almost touched mine. I slapped him, hard. I nearly broke my hand with the force of it.

 

"What the fuck was that?" I shouted. I was scared and confused. I had no idea what had come over him.

 

He was so different, like a stranger, nothing like the man I once loved. His eyes were filed with insanity, and the dark circles under them portrayed his hunger. He must not have fed since Selene's death. That was dangerous, very dangerous for the both of us.

 

"I said I would have your body and your blood, and I will." His menacing tone struck me. A horrific fear gripped me when I realized what he had planned. I hadn't given him what he wanted, so he would have taken it, by force.

 He threw me to the bed with such brute strength that I lost consciousness for a moment. When I awoke, he was on top of me. His strong arms held me in place. Seconds later, he stabbed his sharp fangs into my neck, in the same place Xavier had drank from me the night before. I haidn't wanted this. He needed to be stopped. I thrashed and screamed in pain.