Love Hurts

Begginnings Part 2.

[Jazmine's P.O.V ]

I walked into my house then ran upstairs to my room . Nobody was home so I could let my screams of anger out on my pillow without none of my parents freaking out .

Ughh .. i don't get it!! Why can't he just go to the mall with me . I want to spend some time with him but he just makes it so difficult . I like him . No , scratch that I love him. I have ever since we were 15 . I just think he's really cute and amazing and smart and ughh ... words are not enough to explain how much i like him . I just get this feeling inside of me whenever we're together . Damnit , just by thinking about him makes me blush . But he never wants to hang out or do anything with me so I think he doesen't feel the same . Oh how i wish he would have the same feelings i have. I think i know what the problem is . Imani . She's in our little group of friends . She's about 5'7 and she has long black straight hair, her skin is a little more darker than mine and she has hazel eyes. Im not gonna lie , she is pretty but I don't like to compliment my enemy . She also has feelings for Huey . We've been competing for Huey's heart for 3 years but i think she's winning so far . Huey's been spending less time with me and more with her. They do projects and protests together . She's alot like him actually . She believes in the revolution , rights , basically everything Huey's interested in . Im guessing that's why he hangs out with her so much . I think he might have a crush on her . If he does my world would crumble and fall apart . That's probably what's gonna end up happening anyways . But what can i do ? I can't make him like me . That's just plain wrong . Well , to me i guess . I don't know about other people though . I don't want to lose him to that skank . She's a total bitch and everyone knows it . Me , Cindy , Caesar , and even Riley knew it . But he's just so oblivious to how much of a bitch she is . He always defends her when somebody insults her . I wouldn't count them as insults because most of them are very true . But Huey just can't seem to see that . When she bullies me infront of him he does nothing . nothing . usually Cindy or Caesar step in and defend me but he just tells me to grow up .

As these thoughts passed my mind , I decided to look out the window for a while . Huey's car wasn't in his driveway . I wonder where he is . I didn't really feel like bugging him anymore . I just feel like my presence irritates him .

- 3 hours later -

I decided to go to the library and read something in peace and quiet .They closed until 9p.m so i wanted to go for atleast an hour . It was fall so i decided on wearing a mint green pullover hoodie and some black leggings . Then i just put on my brown boots and my black coat and got in my car .

When I got inside the library I decided to go to the 2nd floor . You see , the library has 2 floors . The downstairs floor was more of a kids section and the top floor was for adults only . I headed up the escalator and made it to the second floor . The first thing I noticed was alot of empty tables . Then i noticed them . Huey was there with Imani . They were just staring at each other . Quietly . The next thing that happened just felt like a bullet going straight throught my heart . She leaned in and kissed him . And the worst part was he was kissing her back .

To keep myself from bursting into tears , even thought I was already silently crying , I immediatley went into another aisle and bit my fist . I just ran down the escalator and out the library . I got into my car and drove home as fast as I could . My parents weren't home yet so i just went upstairs and locked myself in my room . I couldn't hold back my sobs so I just cried loudly until I was practically out of tears . I just fell asleep .

- 6:00 a.m -

The next morning , I woke up and remembered the events that happened last night at the library . It just made me more sad than I already was . It was Friday and I just wanted to get the school day over with . I don't know if I can do it though . Huey was practically in all my classes . I don't know how im gonna avoid him.