"idk.yet"

Chapter 15

I am having a great day. A really great day. First I get hunted down by guards, then I have to go into a meeting about my doom, then I fight with my best friend, learn that people I've trusted with my life have been lying to me, I get an unwelcome mental visit from a person making death threats towards me. My day has been just great.

I am totally not a sarcastic person.

My head is starting to hurt. I thought having a shower would improve my mood and it did, but it was killed by the prince. I get to give him points for that. He couldn't kill me but he sure did kill my semi-decent mood.

Even if it was in some sort of mind realm, he couldn't press the knife into my neck. I wasn't certain if he could kill me in that mind realm, but he seemed to feel the pain of being stabbed. So could he kill me?

Could he have really killed me? Would I have really died? And why am I not taking this seriously?

I don't know.

I don't think he can kill me but he is determined to try. The prince is too scared to kill I can see it in his eyes, he has the fear to be a killer. I don't blame him.

I remember the first time I killed someone. I was fourteen and it was a man who killed his wife because he was angry. The Clan sent me to kill him, an execution. I was allowed to kill him any way I wanted too.

I made it simple. I went into his home and I turned myself invisible when he walked in and threw the knife in the heart. I hesitated for a few seconds, but I had my orders and I had to follow through with them.

How did it feel to take a life?

Honestly, the thought is more nervewracking than the actual deed itself. Did I feel bad for it? I'm human of course I did. But I had to get over it eventually, the more I killed the more immune I was to the pain it brought. Some people don't get over it, Killen for example. I can feel it within him, he takes every death personally, every single one adds up as a weight on his shoulders. He doesn't like talking about it, but then again how would I know?

He lied to me for four blasted years!

How can I trust him again? How can I trust him again? The question lingers in my mind. I know I will trust him again. He's my soul partner, I have too. I am literally connected to him, I have too.

But maybe not right now. I can be mad at him, I can be a little bit pissed, that's reasonable right?

There's a knock at my door. It's probably Killen returning for the night. When I came back Nature and the twins were already gone. There was a note saying that the Clan had found a room for the three siblings. I didn't think much of it, it was already late and Nature was probably tired. I asked enough of her already.

"Symon, we need to talk," It was Grey's voice, what was she doing here? She was pounding the door now. I didn't feel like talking to her, I didn't feel like talking to anyone. But it was her next sentence that really got me. "I have coffee!"

I grudgingly got off the couch and managed to get my lazy arse to the door. "You said you had coffee?" I look at Grey who has a cup of world's best thing in her hands. My response is rude, but Grey would expect this, because like me, Grey rarely ever gives a shit.

"Only if you say please," She says and pulls the cup away from me. I look her in the eyes, one thing you don't do is take coffee away from me.

"Hand over the coffee," I say. She doesn't make any inclination to hand it over so I decided this meeting is over. I close the door.