Pretending [YOONKOOK]

15 : One More Light

"Hy-" Yoongi cut him off.
"I'm going out. Don't wait." Yoongi said cold as he walk but Jungkook bite his lips worried. He don't want to let him go. He don't want Yoongi to do his way. Not this time. So without thinking he grab the older arms and hug them.

"What are you doing kid?" Yoongi ask annoyed as he tried to get himself away from Jungkook.

"Please don't go...I don't want to lose you.." Jungkook mumbles as he at the verge of crying. Yoongi is like a close brother for him. He just really hate it that Yoongi is upset with him and he don't really know why.

"You thought, you never had me in the first place, nobody did..." He pull his hand away harshly before continuing.

"..and no one ever will. Fuck off kid." Yoongi said as he walk out from the room slamming the door to Jungkook's face.

"You had been really awful to Yoongi." Jin said annoyed at Jungkook after he was done waving to Taehyung and Jimin on their way to their next class.

"Wh... What do you mean? Did I do something wrong?" Jungkook ask stuttered.

"You know he is struggling mentally yet you don't even bother to give a shit about him and decide to date Taehyung?" Jin said a bit loud and Jungkook can't help but feel hurt with Jin unusual tone.

"B.. But I tried my hard to reach out to him... He is.. Is the one that refuse.." Jungkook said and Jin smirk.

"You can give all the stupid reasons you want, but if anything ever happen to Yoongi, you will regret it all your fucking life."  Jin snap and Jungkook gasp.

What does he and Taehyung relationship has to do with this? He can still care for Yoongi even when he is in a relationship. Why is he getting attack for this? It's not like he want to date Taehyung but he just don't want to hurt his feelings.

He is just trying so hard to make everyone happy.

But why wasn't it working.

"Hyung I-" Jin glare and stop him from speaking.

"I'm disappointed Jungkook." Jin said last before stand up and walking away from him.

'But.. It's not my fault.. Right?'

But after he saw how Yoongi just push his hand away just proof how much he was bothering the older. But is he doing the wrong things? Wasn't he supposed to always push his barricade down and help him from withdrawing himself away.

Without he realizing, Jungkook was having an internal battle with himself the whole hours, then it turn into the whole night, and the next night, and it just keep getting messier in his head and Jungkook feel so overwhelm.

Going to the hide out nowadays was uncomfortable too, Jin just won't even look toward his way and just cut everything conversation that link to Jungkook.

"Hyung.. What about-" Jungkook tried to talk but then they all were laughing to one of Hoseok silly jokes. Jungkook doesn't know why, but he feel a chest pain really deep inside his heart.

Jin was sitting beside Namjoon, sharing the peanut they bought before coming here, while Jimin was laying on Taehyung lap, Taehyung don't even give a shit about Jungkook, it seems like he was getting bored of Jungkook by now and he didn't understand why, they just been dating for a few weeks. He can't be that useless for someone to be that fast dropping him away right?

Yoongi on the other side, was leaning against Hoseok shoulder supporting himself up as he smile slightly and maybe grab one or two on the food in front of them as he was testing comfortably against Hoseok.

Hoseok would once or twice glance toward Jungkook, but nothing more. He was too scared to get much closer to him. He don't want to develop feelings for Jungkook, so he can put his full attention of saving his friend.

Jungkook was feeling a bit sick and he can't handle feeling anxious too much and he clearly don't want to freak everyone out with his panic attacks.

"Tae...I'm going back." Jungkook whisper lightly but try not to get too close to him as he was scared he might realize Jungkook was shaking.

"Oh yeah okay maknae...make sure to get straight to the dorm okay?" Taehyung said as he look at Jungkook for a few seconds before laughing at Jimin jokes.

Jungkook was hurt.

He stand up and quickly brush off his crinkled clothes down before taking his steps away from the boys as fast as he could.

Hoseok look up to Yoongi to see if he might want to follow after Jungkook, but to his surprised, he was asleep so he didn't realize Jungkook goes back.

Jungkook feel so overwhelm. He feel breathless and he can't handle this feelings. But he know he should be strong, he should never let this feelings consume him but his thoughts were surprisingly too strong this time and he was having a hard time trying to fight them alone.

He doesn't know which way he is going but all he know is Jungkook just run as faster as he could despite having trouble to breath, he is scared. He is scared to hear his father's words echoing in his mind.

Worthless.
A piece of shit.
Disappointment.
Faggot.
Weird.
Emo freak.
Burden.
Annoying.
Not perfect.
Fucking fat.
Disgusting.
Whore.
Just go die.
Nobody need you here.
Waste of space.
I regret having a trash like you.
Fucking just die.
Do the world a favor and go hung yourself.

Everyone will be better off when you're dead.

'Please stop it... Stop it please.. i can't do this... i'm so sorry.. i'm really trying, i'm trying and it is never good enough I got it I'm sorry..'

Jungkook just cried. It has been a long ago since he cried alone like this. He doesn't like this feeling one bit.

"Everything is my fault... Maybe if I'm not an idiot, things won't be as hard.God why am I such a disappointment to everyone?"

TO BE CONTINUE.
What do you have in mind about what is going to happen later guys? Tell me cause I wanna see if anyone can figure it out 😂