Pretending [YOONKOOK]

14 : Nobody Aware

Jungkook and Taehyung turn out become a happy couple living up to their brothers expectation. Don't get Jungkook wrong, he is still on his mission to keep an eye on Yoongi but he doesn't see any harm on dating Taehyung can affect this. Or atleast he thought.

Because he don't know Yoongi true feelings all this time.

He act just like the same to the elder as the days goes on but Yoongi somehow change back to how he was before. He rarely smile. Rarely come back to the room. He can smell cigarettes just from his clothes. He doesn't remember when the last time he even properly sit down and eat.

Jungkook doesn't understand.

He tried to talk to the older. A lots of times but Yoongi will just give him the cold stare and walk past his shoulder leaving a cold air.

It's like they become stranger.

They are here again at their hide out together with the others but today the atmosphere is cloudy.

Yoongi just couldn't seem to talk or barely communicate with anyone.

As he was standing up to walk away, Jin call for him.

"Yoongi? Where are you going?" Jin ask but Yoongi just turn to look at them,his eyes speak everything but his mouth just shut close.

He just leave without saying anything.

"Jungkook, why don't you go and check on him?" Hoseok suggest but he found discomfort in the younger emotions.

"I...Hyung... i'm scared.." Jungkook said softly and everyone sighed. They know Yoongi can be really intimidating for someone like Jungkook. Taehyung just grab their hand and intertwine them together to comfort the younger.

Yoongi just give up. He know nothing he did will change anything. He used to have this small hope that maybe his life will eventually got better, but it was crushed. He shouldn't be mad with Jungkook for choosing Taehyung, he know he will be much happier with him rather than him. He is nothing but darkness.

He is such a burden to everyone doesn't it? Why did he even have to be here? There is no reason for him to stay living. Who even want to handle someone who is so complicated like him?

Yoongi was battling on taking his own life, sometimes when he went to smoke, he did went and stand at the edge of the rooftop as his body swaying with the wind.

He went up there again today, but today he brought a razor along with him. He doesn't feel like cutting in the bathroom, he just want to sit here alone and make some art with white and red.

As he was deep in thoughts and carving lines on his pale wrist, his phone ring and he was distracted. It was a video call from Hoseok.

Yoongi doesn't feel like answering but Hoseok is such a nice boy all this time. He sighed out heavily before making sure the razor and arms are away from Hoseok eyes can be reach.

"Hyung! Where are you?" Hoseok voice rang through the phone and Yoongi just lazily stare at the screen uninterested.

"Nowhere." He replied.

"I feel like drinking. Can you accompany me? I don't feel like going with the others... They are too loud." Hoseok said giving nonsense reasons.

He is just worried about Yoongi and he want to make sure the older is doing alright at least.

"I want to die." Yoongi said out of nowhere and Hoseok just gasp.

Yoongi was wearing a black oversize hoodie as he laugh when he said he want to die.

"Hyung.... It's okay... Where are you? I'll be there... Just tell me okay?" Hoseok said gently and Yoongi just laugh it out. Everything seems so funny to him.

He is a total failure.
He thought he had a good future.
He thought someone will love him.
He thought he will survive this.
He thought he will starting to love life.
He thought.

Yoongi bring his hand to wipe his sweats that turn out to be tears and he just stare at his palm of salty droplet as he smile weakly.

"I'm...so...tired...Hoseok-ah.." Yoongi said as he cover his face and cry as he put down the phone beside.

"Hyung.. I'm coming there... Tell me where are you?" Hoseok said as he locking down his room before sprinting out to nowhere.

Yoongi just can't keep his feelings right now. He is just so tired of the thoughts and living. He is tired of waiting for life to get better.

Unconsciously, he grab the razor and start to cut himself again. And Hoseok was panic.

"Hyung, listen to me. Put down the knife okay? Put it down and tell me where are you." Hoseok try to comfort the older but all he can heard was Yoongi sobbing.

Hoseok try to ask around and it was a success when he open the rooftop door to see a small black figure sitting on the floor with a pale wrist exposed to the cold air.

"Yoongi..." Hoseok call his name softly as he was trying to hold his tears as he saw how weak the older looklike.

Yoongi eyes were closed as he lay his head against the wall while his wrist sleeves are rolled up and exposed to the air.

"Hyung.. I'm here.. I'm already here.. Come on... Can you open your eyes?" Hoseok ask as he gently shake Yoongi's shoulder and the older just flinch a bit.

"H...He... Help.." Yoongi mumbles softly enough and Hoseok's heart just break to hear his weak call of help. He just pull the older into a warm hug as he limp in his arms.

"I'm here... i'm here hyung.." Hoseok whispers as he cried.

He pull off from the hug and analyze Yoongi's wrist and he just gulp nervous. Yoongi had been cutting for a while now. All the cuts seems really new and still red.

"Hyung, we need to go to the hospital." Hoseok said softly as he cover the older with his coat before slowly carrying the older with piggyback style as his light body hold on to his back.

"...and young Hoseok, control your feelings. Jungkook is not yours, he was Yoongi's and will always been his. The only reason you have him right now, is because you failed to save Yoongi."

Hoseok is trying so hard to get over his feelings for the younger and he was shocked when the event of him and Jungkook going on a date is still happening but the different is... Taehyung was in the place of Hoseok.

The old event is still repeating but only the character change.

TO BE CONTINUE.
more and more is coming out. Haha