Pretending [YOONKOOK]

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Jungkook open his eyes to see the hospital wall. He was send to the hospital. He was surprised. He thought nobody would help him after he knock out. He wish people had let him die there at the first place.

His thought was distracted when a person walk in the room, and he was tense to see a person he never want to see again. Atleast not in this weak state.

"..d.. Dad.." Jungkook stutter looking at his dad angry face.

"Are you kidding me? Just how useless can you be Jungkook? Really? Got in fight? Is this what you are living for? Got into a fight with strangers? What the fuck is wrong with you?" His father shout at his face.

Jungkook just look at his hand as his father face was too scary for him to stare at. He had a tiny hope that his father would be worried about him, but he is surely an idiot. He never get it. Nobody is going to care about him. He is just a fucking burden.

"Listen, from now on I want you to go and delete all of my and Yae Hee phone numbers from your information record. Cause we are not going to come back here again. You are such a trash that I don't even want to admit you are my son. Don't ever find us again and I fucking regret having you in our life. Fuck off and never show up again crap." He said before throwing the hospital paper at Jungkook's face.

"..oh and I know, due to your stupid poor self, you won't even have money to eat, i paid the bills. Maybe if you can't afford a life, why not just die? It makes things so easier for everyone else." He said last before walking out and Jungkook just grab the blanket tighter as he was shaking.

'What is happening to me? Why does everything I did is wrong? How do I fix this? What can I do to stop people from leaving? Do I really need to die? Does is make anything easier for anyone if I was never exist?' Jungkook thought as he cried alone hugging his knees.

Too much had happen in such a short amount of times.
Too much things for him to handle.
Too much that he can't see a way out anymore.

Jungkook had made up his mind. He makes his way back to the university dorm. Jungkook still struggling to walk as the bruises on his body still brand new and his lips is swollen as his head was stitched. His hair was messy as his clothes was stained with old dried blood of his own.

Jungkook didn't expect to see Yoongi inside the room as at that time it was supposed to be class time.

He open the door to a stressed Yoongi on the sofa and his steps stop by the door. Yoongi lift his attention to the person at the door and his eyes popped out as he quickly stand up and walk toward Jungkook that now is trying to hide his bruises and stitches from Yoongi but failed miserably.

"Jungkook? Oh my God, what happen to you!?" Yoongi ask as he examined his face as Jungkook just close his eyes. He don't want Yoongi to see him cry.

"I'm fine.. Really.. Excuse me I need to pack.." Jungkook said as he gently remove Yoongi's hand away from his body walking in toward his bed and pick an empty box and start to grab things away from the desk into the box and Yoongi was confused.

"Why are you packing up?" He ask as he stand beside his desk eyes going back and forth as Jungkook was cleaning the room.

"I'm leaving the university." Jungkook said short but Yoongi just snap.

"What? No what are you talking about? Why?" Yoongi now desperately need Jungkook to give him attention so he can figure this out.

"I'm giving up on my studies." Jungkook said and Yoongi hold his arms and pull the younger to turn and look at his face.

"But why? Why out of nowhere? You are a great student! You have a bright future! Why now? Is it because of your parents?" Yoongi keep asking questions as he lightly shake the younger shoulder.

"I have something else to do." He said simply and he can tell Yoongi doesn't like his answer.

"Are you trying to run away from me?" Yoongi fire.

"I'm not hyung. If anything, I'm just trying to help you feel more comfortable living here... I mean you don't have to deal with a lousy busy body person like me anymore." Jungkook said as he laugh lightly and Yoongi doesn't find any joke in that sentence instead of pain.

"This is my fault is it?" Yoongi question but Jungkook manage to stop his tears as he was already turn around to keep packing up again.

"This is nobody fault. I'm just a stranger hyung. Don't get attached to me, I might hurt you." Jungkook said and Yoongi just close his eyes.

"Right, just do.. Do whatever you want." Yoongi said as he continue to walk away from Jungkook. Jungkook know this will be the end of their friendship. Everyone is leaving. He is just a disappointment for everyone.

Yoongi ended up leaving the room alone to Jungkook and the younger was perplexed alone. This room doesn't have much memories since they were only closer for a short while.

As he was cleaning the drawers, Jungkook eyes stop at the letters he had been hiding away from Yoongi.

Maybe if he never open the letter at the first place, things might had been perfect right now. Maybe he and Yoongi is friend that can tell each other everything. Maybe he and Jin can be closer as his own brother. Maybe Taehyung can admit his feelings to Jimin instead of throwing them away to Jungkook as he was scared of ruining their friendship.

Jungkook sighed and clean up once more before taking all his things but not forget to leave a note on the desk. He look last to the room, before walking out and close the room also forgetting his dreams.

'I can't save your life from falling, but I can fall instead.'

Jungkook.

TO BE CONTINUE.
Watch everything and I don't even know. I feel like killing myself so bad right now. I mean nobody would even care. Everyone will be better off without me as I'm such a burden for everyone. I might do it for real this time. And if I didn't update for more than a week, I'm sorry this is my last letter i love you guys so much ❤ please take care