Pretending [YOONKOOK]

18 : Truth Untold

All the boys were shocked when they can't found Jungkook at the university. Yoongi was alone in his room and he can't feel any more depressed than he already is. He miss Jungkook.

"What?!He just drop out?" Jin ask shocked and a little bit of selfblame were starting to grow in his heart.
"But he did well in study?" Namjoon said confused and Jimin just stay silence.
"I don't care anymore." Taehyung replied as he eat the chips. They are currently at the hide out but it feel so weird with only six person here.
"Do you know where he might went to Yoongi?" Hoseok ask worried and Yoongi just shake his head.
"His phone is off too.." Jin said as he tried to call but it goes into voicemail directly.

Yoongi just stand up from the ground as all eyes of him.

"I'm leaving." He said emotionless.

Yoongi just went back to their shared room. He just miss Jungkook. He really regret acting like a bastard to him. He do. He love him. But he is too scared the younger might realize his feelings.

Yoongi grab his hair frustrated as he grab out his lighter and sit at the edge of Jungkook bed leaving empty space enough for another body he had been missing beside him as he caress the empty space.

'I'm sorry..' Yoongi thoughts as he remember how he promised Jungkook that he can always run to him to seek safety. But right now? He don't even know where the younger is.

Yoongi sit up on the bed, shuffling to the edge as he play with the lighter. He remember how Jungkook used to hide his lighter back then as he was trying to stop the older from smoking. Yoongi know it's Jungkook that had been stealing it away, but he just pretend he didn't as he love to see how cute he react when Yoongi ask him.

Yoongi smile reminiscing the old memories but his smile drop as he stare back at the fire.

If it wasn't for his stupid behaviour, maybe the younger would had been here, not in his memories.

Yoongi feel like burning himself down.

He hate himself so much it's overwhelming.

Yoongi just keep blaming himself, as his thoughts keep getting darker and darker as his shoulder drop lower and lower.

Hoseok was trying his best to find Jungkook but in the same time Yoongi was drifting away and away. He feel so exhausted sometimes angry that Jungkook just left this for Hoseok to finish.

Little did he know.

After days and nights, the day of the event finally arrive. Hoseok didn't sleep a wink the night before the day. He can't. He is afraid that nothing is going to change. Hoseok rush out to Yoongi right after he finish washing up and call the older. Today is a holiday, so he is scared the older might went somewhere he don't know about.

And to his fear, Yoongi didn't pick up his phone.

Jungkook was struggling to walk toward his room bed. After leaving the university, his life just went completely black. Jungkook use the left over money he was given for the scholarship to rent a room for a month. But today will be the last day so he is cleaning his stuff.

A month he had spend trying to survive in the room. If he want to die, he don't want it to be a waste.

As Jungkook was folding his clothes into the box for charity, few knocks were heard from his door.

Jungkook didn't think much as he expect it to be the landlord asking for the payment, but he was freeze infront the door as Yoongi was standing infront of him, eyebag can be seen under his eyes, how messy his clothes is, Jungkook know he run all the way here with the way he is breathing.