Dangerous World

Feelings?

Rita's POV
So in life, you should have this one person who can help you talk about your feelings who can also relate and sort there life, but sort yours out in the process. In my world, broken people help broken people and I know in our world that is not exactly how it works. In reality, broken people are helped by people who are not broken yet, but act as they know about all the messed up shit we have been through which really doesn't help. I mean it may help some people, but not me. My mom told me many things about myself I wish I never knew. It hurts that I don't really understand what is going on in this messed up world they call home which is scary, but beautiful in its magical ways. I wanted to so badly talk to Calvin today, but I didn't know what to say I don't know but for the past few days after hearing about the event thug and after our talk we haven't talked much. I wonder what is going on in his head right now. What did I do? I fell like I messed up, but I will never know until I ask, the only thing is I'm too scared to talk to him about my feelings not for life, but for him. There are two more days until the event and I don't know what to wear. My friends that I met here as you may recall ash and Lily decided to wake me up this morning with again a surprise both June came and the sad part we had to go shopping for a dress. Ugh I know I would love to stay in my sweet, long, saggy, and warm pants with my t-shirt that said SLEEP.LOVE.SLEEP. Simple, but a good and inspirational quote. Of course, I was so annoyed by them so I decided to go. When we made it to the mall I don't know what overcame me, but I couldn't stop thinking about how I felt about Calvin but was there really anything that could tell me that it isn't just a fantasy but it could soon become reality. Why couldn't I just enjoy this fantastic moment with my friends? I asked myself this as we walked through so many aisles of dresses until one caught me by surprise it was so beautiful.
The dresses she looked at and then they bought it:
Hers is the blue and June's is pink.

Ashlei's dress:

Lily's dress:

As they bought the dresses they all went home to try it on and dance all around for fun. You know how girls like to play around well even though we were playing a rounding in our dresses it was kinda really since this magical kingdom will be a night to remember in a good or bad way we will not know until the event. I'm scared of meeting Johnathon. Will I like him and what will happen with Calvin my feelings for him are all over the place, but every time I think about him my heart begins to race. I don't know what that is supposed to mean is it good or is it bad? I have no one to talk to about my feelings. Well, that is a lie. While I was staying here I and ash got closer, but I don't know if I can tell her maybe I will tell them later on like tomorrow because apparently, we are going out to relax. Sounds fun, I think.