Dangerous World

Are you in or not?

      Today Jonas came to wake me up and I got that feeling again and I don't know what it means. I mean it can't mean anything, I'm dating Calvin, the guy that he can't get along with. Ugh, why do I feel this way about Jonas, what is it about him that makes me feel like I know him. I feel like I'm missing a piece of my life once again, but I thought they told me everything so why do I feel like this. I hate this feeling the feeling where I feel lost and I just want something to just be filled in for once, for me to know everything. Sadly in life you always need some mystery. It takes people in and out of your life for no reason and we don't know who or why they are doing this. Who controls us, who helps us become who we are.  Today is one of those bad days, but the only good thing is that I get to see my best friends after training.

Jonas: Welcome to training princess.

Rita: Cut the crap, let's get to work.

Jonas: Feisty, I like it.   

Rita: *rolls her eyes*  This will be interesting. 

Jonas: Oh, by the way your boy toy, Calvin won't be joining us for any of the trainings.

Rita: He is my boyfriend and just shut up and begin.

Jonas: You got it princess.

Rita: Stop calling me princess because you know for a fact I am a queen.

Jonas: Wow cocky much.

Rita: Those are supposed to be my lines.

Jonas: Ok, ok let's get started. First we are going to get started on how you can handle your powers.

Rita: Well this will be fun.

Rita's POV

The whole time that we started training I couldn't stop thinking about what I read from Calvin's mind. God how I hate myself for hearing that. I feel like he can't even trust me.  As we were training I think that Jonas realized something was up. Apparently he could tell by the flames coming out from my entire body. He tried to calm me down, but all I could think about is how Calvin thought I would leave him for Jonas. I mean anybody  would get mad if their boyfriend thought you could do something so disgusting. I tried not to break down because I felt like I lost his trust without even doing anything. Then Jonas put his hand on my shoulder and I felt the flames settle down. I felt stupid because I didn't know what to say to him.  The whole point of today's training was so I can control my powers not unleash them like a psychotic bitch. I took a deep breath and told him I was okay and after that he said, "I know you are not okay, but I'll let it slide, but if it happens again just use the element of air". I didn't know how to do that but before I could even ask he showed me. I don't know how he did that. I thought I was the only one with the elements, but I guess not. At first it was hard to do, but once you get the words right it is easier. The spell we used was Spanish, deja que los vientos de la tierra calmen la tormenta a mi alrededor. It means let the winds of earth calm the storm around me. When I finally did the spell I felt the breeze flow throw my body. It couldn't be seen only felt, and it felt so relaxing. It felt like a cool breeze passing through a hot summer day. 

For the next four days I learned how to control the elemental part of my powers. For fire my anger became useful as it made my powers grow stronger, but when I was relaxed it was like a nice camp fire type feeling. With water it felt like I could take control of all the seas, but for now I stuck with taking water out of a baby pool. Water was hard because when I lifted it up it fire backed and I got wet and of course Jonas laughed, so then I took his advice. I took a deep breathe in and focused on what I wanted to do with the water and I dumped it on him. I made sure not to look down just in case, you know, yea that, but when I did I saw nothing and laughed, guess it was nonexistent. Air I already knew how to control all I had to do was control my breathing and to do that for part of the training we did yoga. Learning how to control air was the best part of training because I got to see Jonas make a fool out of himself. I was practically the teacher at that point. The last element was the hardest, and that was Earth. It was hard because I couldn't find my connection with Mother Nature. Jonas decided it would be better if we go into the garden. We got there we sat on the grass and I tried.

Rita: I give up. *falls back on the grass*

Jonas: Come on, you have to keep trying. A wise man once said "Try again, fail again. Fail better."

Rita: Let me guess, Samuel Beckett.

Jonas: How do you know about him.

Rita: Because I do this thing that humans do, it's called reading.

Jonas: *gasp* oh my god, that is so cool.

Even though what he said was stupid it made me smile. Mainly because he did this thing that he always does. It's hard to explain he does a childish grin and a face like a cute puppy asking for help. I know I shouldn't be thinking about this because i'm not single, but I haven't heard from Calvin in a week. I'm not about to waste my time thinking about someone who left without saying goodbye after thinking what he thought. I have nothing to say now. Maybe I should ask Mom, she usually knows everything.