everyone tells me to
punch you
speak up
love myself
but how can i
punch you
when i would be consumed with guilt?
how can i
speak up
when there's a possibility that you might confront me about it?
how can i
love myself
if i believe i do not deserve to be loved?
everyone tells me what to do-
and it may seem stupid
but i still feel like i am being controlled
like i am dependent on everyone around me
like i physically and mentally cannot function on my own
without someone holding my petals up
without someone keeping my stem straight
without someone pouring water onto me
without someone shining on me
without someone protecting me
or are they protecting themselves from me?
afraid i might snap?
afraid i might finally scream out at the top of my lungs?
afraid i might let loose all my anger on those around me?
afraid i might hurt them?
afraid i might hurt myself again?
but how can i hurt myself again when i am already in constant pain from you?
YOU ARE READING
Just A Suicidal Flower
Poesía▪️only one flower was harmed in the making of this book▪️
