Okay? Okay... (part 1)

Friend Mode Again

I ran inside to change slightly. I put my hair in a pony tail and switched to flip flops. I took the flannel off my waist and grabbed a thin, loose, hoodie. It was white, and on the back it said, Friday is da bomb, in blue. I walked downstairs and out the door.

"I thought you were hot?" Trevor asked. "I am. But I don't want the guys or anyone to see my cuts. Especially Sam. If someone else is unhappy, it makes it worse for him, so.." I trailed off.

Trevor put his arm on my shoulders and we walked to the guys house. "Why are we coming here?" He asked boredily. "Because you're leaving Wednesday and I won't see you till math everyday. I mean, this is like your house to me. I haven't seen your moms h- wait. I haven't even MET your mom!"

"You don't want to." "Mhm. Thats what they all say." I said sarcastically. "How many guys have you dated?" "First of all, none. Second of all, we aren't a couple. I was being sarcastic." I said in a duh tone. "Oh."

We walk in and Kian starts laughing. "Wow! So you're really a thing now huh?" He said. "No we're not. Lay of Lawley." I said. "Guess what Lindz?" Trevor asked. "Hm?" "POKE!"

He poked my cheek. Poke. Poke. Poke poke poke. I turned my head to him and said "Trevor stop it pl- OWW!" When I turned my head, he poked me in the eye. "Friek Trevor! I use my eyes unlike you ya know." "oh my god Im sorry!" He said. He moved my hand and looked at my eye.

"Oh my gosh! We need a wambulance!" He picked me up and threw me on the couch. The started tickling my feet, and my neck, the only ticklish spots on my body. "Are you sure you two aren't together? Because it sure seems like it." Ricky said. "We're sure. Just don't go spreading rumors." Trevor said to him sticking his tongue out.

"Got any Nutella?" I asked. "ITS MINE!" Connor screamed. He slid on his socks into the kitchen and grabbed the Nutella, retreating back to his room. I ran after him, and tackles him.

After a good ten minutes of messing around, I sat on home and wouldn't get off. He gave up and have it to me. I skipped to the kitchen and made a sandwich. I took it over to the table and all the guys but Trev and Con follow and sit too. I rolled up my sleeves and took a bite.

Everything stopped. They guys just stared at me. I put down my sandwich and swallowed hard. "What?" I asked. I looked at Sam and he looked at my arms then quickly back at me. I put my arms in my lap and pulled my sleeves down.

"Di-did you..." Sam started. "Guys, Sam, Im fine." Sam nodded holding back his tears. I remember he made a video about his depression, and I decided when I met him I'd be happy. Well I screwed up and made him feel terrible. Im so stupid.

I got up and walked to the couch. Connor sat next to me and I put my head on his shoulder. "Whats wrong?" I showed him my wrists and he hugged me. "I fe-feel terrible Con. I made Sam cry. He-he probably feels terrible now." I said between sobs.

He rubbed my back and said "Its not your fault. Just know that we don't hate you for doing this ok? We knew someone who thought we hated them cause they cut. But we won't drop you." "Thanks Connor." I said smiling at him.

"Whoa... am I interrupting anything?" JC said walking into the room. Connor turned his head and I could tell he gave him a wtf look. "You guys are weird. I my old bestfriend could put his arm on my shoulder anytime and no one would make unnecessary comments." I said

"Yeah! And the weirdest thing is that Connors 21 JC. What do you think was going on? A make out session?" Ricky said smiling. Me and Connor burst out laughing. JC gave a small chuckle and said "It looked like they were cuddling. jeez"

Connor scooted over and everyone sat down for a movie. Sam sat next to me and just..well sat there. I looked over at him and he was I'd say, in shock. His eyes were bloodshot and he was tense. His hands were clawing the couch and he was breathing heavilyish.

I grabbed his had and his head whipped towards me. He stared and his nose flared. His look scared me, but I leaned in. Not to kiss him god.. I whispered to him "Im sorry. And Im fine. Really Sam." He backed away and studies my face. His body relaxed and he made a side smile.

"What are we watching Kian?" I asked. "Only the best movie of all fucking time!" "Oh? And what would that be?" "FROZEN! duh!" I rolled my eyes as I heard everyone say 'yes!' JC even dares to give Kian a high five. "You guys are such kids."