Okay? Okay... (part 1)

Forgiveness

I wake up the next morning and don't feel like doing anything. It was a Saturday morning and all I wanted to do was die. Just die. Dead. Death. Splat.

But no. I went for a walk anyways. I put on black loose calf sweats, my black prince of whales hoodie, and white and blue DCs.

I walked to Chloe's cause I need someone. I walked past the O2L house and I froze. There were cups in the yard, food on the windows, Sawyer was passed out on the lawn, and jeez! It's was 11! I quickly ran over to Sawyer and shook him.

His eyes opened and he laughed. "God you're drunk as fuck, Sawyer! What the hell? You should get home. What happened last night?" "Lets just say that Trevor's not a virgin!" He said laughing.

Great. Just the words I wanted to hear. That'll just mess you up man. I left Sawyer and knocked on Chloe's door. Amber, her step mom opened it. "Hi. Sorry but Chloe isn't here. Shes with Kristine." She said. "Oh. Ok. Thank you thought." She closed the door but I wasn't that sad. I still had Jess.

I grabbed my laptop and Skyped her. Kat answered. "Hey Lindsey. Jess isn't here right now." "I don't care. Got a while?" "Yeah Im free. Whats up?"

(K is Kat M is me. You should know this by know lol)

M-it's Trevor

K-Doldge? Isn't he 10? And in Africa?

M-Not dolge! Moran! The YouTuber?

K-right! I knew that

M-anyways, yesterday was his birthday. I set up a little thing that was gonna say I liked him and-

K-wait you like Trevor?

M-No. Yes! I thought you knew? Jeez! Have you been living under a rock? so I saw him kissing some girl and I feel terrible. its like Taylor all over again. My heart frieking died.

K-that's not true. Taylor left for a reason. he didn't like cheat on you. besides, you two aren't dating. you're totally over reacting.

M-ok I guess. thanks Kat.

I closed my laptop and called Trevor.

~Hey

-Here to yell at me?

~Oh uh, no. Look Im sorry for over reacting.

-You didn't over react. You just made me feel more like a dick.

~Isn't that over reacting?

-uhh no. But I really am sorry. I shouldn't have even let her near me. I realize that Im horrible but I guess what in trying to ask is...will you forgive me?

~Ok asshole. All is forgiven. Just one thing, did you have sex last night?

-Uhh no I did not. 100% virginity you're talking to.

~Ok. Hey Ill meet you at the froyo place in half hour k?

-kk. Bye

~bye

He hung up and I decided to really get dressed and not be a bum. I put on jean shorts, a white tank top, a blue white and black flannel around my waist, completed with blue vans, a side braid, and cheap shades.

I grabbed nova and headed to the froyo station. I got peach, covered in gummy bears, and a cherry. idk. I sat down at a table and watch as Trevor walked in. He smiled and sat down.

There was an awkward kind of silence. I broke that silence with a cough. "How DARE you break the silence!" Trevor said playfully shoving me. I wasn't holding onto the table so I fell on the ground. I giggled and Trevor struggled to help me up because of my weird position.

I finally stood up and grabbed my yogurt. I threw the cup away and put nova to my side. It's was nice and hot out and I really was hyperventilating. I mean, I come from a cold and not humid state. I sat down on a bench and wipe my forehead.

"Get up." Trevor said. "Why? Im hot i need a break." "Just get up." I stood up as told and crossed my arms. Suddenly I was picked up and being carries bridal style. "Trev! What the hell?! Put me down!" I yelled. "Why? You're tired and you're easy to carry."

"Just put me down please. Im in a girly position." He rolled his eyes and put me down.

We headed to my house and sat down in the grass. "Hey uh.. So do you actually like me?" Trevor asked. I blushed and said "Yeah. But I don't like to admit it when I like someone. Its like a weakness. And I don't wanna really date now. We should wait." He nodded and laid back.

"Lindsey, did you cut?!" He asked sitting up quickly. "No. Ill be right back." I said. I got up and headed to the door. Trevor followed and Grabbed my wrist. I winced a little and hit his hand. "You did." I looked down at my feet embarrassed.

He pulled me into a hug that was unexpected. "Uh Tr-" "Dont do it again. Ever. Okay?" He asked. "Okay. Never."