Autumn [MYG]

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I stared at him in shock, did he really just say 'yes'? His eyes scanned my shocked face and he gave me a small smiled. His gums showed a bit and for some reason, my stupid heart leaped out of my chest. Did he know? 

Did he know that I was falling for him?

"Wasn't that a bit too quick of an answer. Usually, someone would take a few minutes or even hours to come up with one", I stated somehow feeling a bit agitated. He smirked and turned his back towards me, "I don't like waiting for an answer so why should I let someone wait for an answer from me?", He walked towards the door slowly "Meet me at XXXXX University at 6 PM".

"XXXXX University?" I questioned curiously. Yoongki pushed the door and stepped out, "It seems like we both attend the same college, I saw you yesterday coincidentally while walking to class". He made himself out of the place leaving me frozen like stone. Someone pinched my arm, I flinched momentarily and turned to look at the person to did it. 

"Tsk Tsk... If you keep staring at the door like he's suddenly going to come back, I'll pinch you even harder", suddenly he grabbed my hand and placed my mini purse on it. "You left it on your seat," he said plainly. 

"T-Thanks" I stuttered, I mentally slapped myself for making a fool out of myself. "Let's go and have dinner, I'm famished", Hoseok wrapped his arm around my neck pulling me with him.

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We were on the train since it was around sevenish there almost no one aboard, Hobi was next to me reading a book that he brought with him and I was listening to music. We were both in our worlds. My head drifted of to Yoongki's music earlier today. Could I really learn to play like that? Can I truly pour that much emotion to my piano playing? He seemed so perfect like there were no flaws to his playing. His fingers when they landed on the keys seemed so gentle. It's like no matter how much I try pushing away this memory, it always resurfaced. 

But somehow, I didn't want to delete it.

I took off my headphones upon leaving the train and shoved them into my bag. I considered myself to be very messy, my father had always criticized my attitude towards my uncleanliness. At this time I just wish that he were here, giving me a smile and telling me how wonderful my piano playing was but it was just an empty wish. When I was little my dad overworked himself. My family was really poor and as much as he worked we never had enough money. He became too tired and one day while he was cleaning windows at the top of the stairs in a company that he worked for, he fainted and fell down the flight of stairs knocking him severely on the head. I was in elementary school at that time, I just though my dad was sleeping but what I didn't know was that he got enough brain damage that even when he woke up he would have memory loss. 

It frightened me how scary life could be, its like a continuous movie that you can not press pause too. Hoseok nudged my shoulder softly, "Whatcha thinking about Hazel?", he stepped onto the staircase climbing up slowly. "Is it about your dad?"

I nodded slightly, "I just miss him... a lot". I clutched my bag, I held back my tears. The stairs seemed endless although we were literally on the second floor. "It's natural to miss him after leaving our hometown. If you want to call you mother when you get inside your apartment to ease the pain, you can"

"My mother?", I don't remember the last time I had spoken to her. I wish I could talk to her more often but with my hectic schedule, I didn't have any time to even text her. "I'll try, she might not be awake". I got out my keys as we made it to my apartment door '36D'. I pushed open the door once I unlocked it, I entered throwing my bag on the hanger and immediately went to the bathroom to change. I was too lazy to take a bath. 

I know, I'm disgusting.

I took my usual dark blue shorts and sleeveless top, then I washed my face and I finally felt fresh and just ready to go to bed but the sudden rumbling of my stomach made me remember that I hadn't eaten at all. I got out of the bathroom and found Hobi making angels on the carpet floor like a little kid. A chuckle left my lips, I wish I could be as carefree as him. I sat on the floor criss-cross apple sauce and a sigh escaped me. I could finally relax. 

"We should eat some octopus" Hobi spoke cheerfully, I cringed. I hate octopus, not because its octopus but because it just simply tastes terrible. "You know I don't like octopus Hoseok"

"Fine how about some Kimchi Stew and Samgyeopsal for you and for me I will have Octopus and Gimbap?", I leaned back on the edge of the bed throwing my legs out. "Fine" I agreed. We had to wait a few minutes for our dinner to come around but when I finally came, we ate like a horse. Devouring our food nonstop, it was clear that we were hungry. My mind went back to the delivery when the man questioned if I was going to eat both of the meals and I answered him with a no, that I was going to eat it with a friend and I pointed at Hoseok but the man's eyebrows furrowed but he seemed to let it go. He told me to have a good meal and left us to our devices. The spicy soup burned its way down my throat, "Hoseok, the delivery guy was acting really weird..." I stated although it sounded more of a question than a statement. 

"How so?" he swallowed his piece of Gimbap and looked at me with his eyes shining. "He made it seem that he didn't see you" I stated, I pierced the piece of meat and bit onto it. 

"I don't know maybe he couldn't see me from where you were standing?" Hoseok said

"Maybe.." I took my final bite of food feeling already extremely full and got up. "I'm gonna go to bed", I went to the bathroom and washed my teeth quickly feeling the tiredness seep in already. I made my way back and fell on the bed, cuddling up against my pillow. Hoseok got up and gave me a smile. 

"Goodnight Hazel" He pulled my covers up and whispered-

"Sweet Dreams"