Autumn [MYG]

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I opened my mouth but no words came out except for a squeak, with the help of Yoongki I managed to stand up once again. While picking up my keys, he stared at me for a few seconds with a weird look and I looked away feeling embarrassed. 

"I thought you said you were sick", I fidgeted with the hem of my hoodie and managed to look back at him. "I... uhm... yeah, I am sick but I just came back from work"

He let out a sigh and pushed back his hair with his eyes closed, "You know if you're sick you shouldn't have gone to work at all"
"It was my first day so I couldn't just call in sick", I suppressed the urge to just close my eyes and hear his soothing voice. "Which apartment do you live in?", I looked behind me and pointed at the door, "that one".

He walked upstairs grabbing me by my elbow, "Open it" he simply said. I quickly grabbed the cake from the ground and clicked the door open with my keys. I entered and briefly searched around the apartment for any sign of Hoseok but to my disappointment, he was not here. 

Yoongki followed after me and closed the door, we took off our shoes and entered with the sandals upfront. I went towards the kitchen, "Do you want anything to drink?" he shook his head and pushed me by the shoulders onto my bed. Our eyes met momentarily, his dark ones taking me into a trance that I couldn't break away from. Yoongki cleared his throat, "Just stay here".

He moved away from me and went into the kitchen, where I was a few seconds ago, and entered. I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes. Darkness... That's what it was that made me like to sleep. For long minutes you could forget what's happening, where you are, what you are doing and be calm. The sense that when you wake up again, everything may or may not have changed. The loud cluttering from the kitchen made me open my eyes, I shifted my position onto my shoulder. I heard Yoongki muttering words but I couldn't really make out what he was saying. 

Minutes turned to hours and now it was about one AM but I was still awake. Slowly Yoongki came out of the kitchen with a bowl on his hands, I got up from my position and stared at him as he was struggling to balance it while walking. He carefully placed the bowl on the small table where Hoseok and I would eat our meals together, he placed a spoon next to it. I hesitantly picked up the utensil and looked at the meal he had prepared for me. It was chicken and rice porridge, I took a sip of the food and my eyes widened. 

It tasted just like... my mom's.

He sat down across from me as I ate the porridge slowly, accidentally burning my tongue at times but I didn't care. This made me realize that I missed my mom so much, my old mother who used to care about me before getting into bad drinking and smoking habits. I held back tears and stopped for a moment.

I smiled widely and looked at Yoongki, "Thank you so much!" I took some more of the delicious food "It's amazing!" I said while chewing a piece of chicken.

"Yah, eat slowly" before I knew it, I ate everything from the bowl and placed the spoon back down on the table. Yoongki got up from the floor and headed towards the entrance door. 

"Where are you going?" I questioned "Home," he said with a low voice. "Hey Yoongki" He turned around and me my tired eyes

"How did you find me?", he gave me a small smile "I guess you never noticed but we live in the same condominium now"

And with that he left my apartment, the door slammed shut. I stood up and went to my bed and laid down for a moment.

"I guess you never noticed..." I repeated what he said. Does that mean that I have seen him here before? Or better yet, he has seen me around but I never noticed?

I heard the front door click, I sat up quickly trying to see who entered and out came Hoseok. His appearance was battered and in other words he didn't look well.

"I'm sorry" he said looking at me with tired eyes

"I'm sorry too Hoseok" I got up and ran to him pulling him into a hug. His arms slowly wrapped around my waist pulling me closer to him. 

"I'm so sorry" Tears pooled out of my eyes and hugged him tighter.

I never thought I would say this,

But I missed him so much