i imagined dying
akin to sleeping.
to feel my whole being
slowly dripping.
the void consuming
remnants of feeling.
but i woke up drowning
from Your words breathing.
each word You spoke danced with life
placing a rose on my coffin.
stab, maim, slap, shame,
any would've been better than what You gave
You broke it
crackle like thunder it went
fizzle like tears on the blazing sun
You broke it
i'll never feel the same
i've gone mad, insane
You broke it
the apologies carried by the wind
the excuses that cut too deep
i broke You
with the moments never shared
with hopes that became regrets
with promises i never said
with a smile always
because You died
the moment You chose to live
without me by your side.
and so i gave You a smile
once more
farewell my friend
may Your happiness live on
like shadows that haunt me.
~•~
Nightmares are dreams compared to the horrors of reality. I've always wondered if a one-sided love between friends can ever be overcome. I've seen and experienced it so it's not impossible. But is it the rule or the exception? And for those who cannot overcome it, well I pray for their souls:
For they will experience death while still living
-Darkcueink (11/2/2019)
