My Love For You Will Never End♥

Chapter 48: Cherish The Moments We Shared <|3

Chapter 48: Cherish The Moments We Shared <|3

*Roc’s P.O.V*

I sit up from my sleep with my head pounding! This wasn’t even a headache; it was a serious migraine. I realize that I was still at O’s house and it was 4am. Alana wakes up.

Alana: “Morning.” I sigh heavily just now realizing what I did last night. Me: “Alana Siyara can’t find out about this.” Alana: “She won’t.” I could tell by the look in her eyes that something wasn’t right.

Me: “I’m serious about this Alana.” She nods her head. We both get dressed and I walk her home. There was no I’d get in through the front door, so I had to climb the tree and go through Yaniese’s room window.

I crawl through quietly, seeing Siyara fast asleep on the bed. She looked so peaceful but I knew she felt empty having to go to sleep without me by her side.

I was always the reason why she’d go to bed with a smile on her face. Now, all I do is make her fall sleep in tears. It’d be worse if she found out what happened last night. I walk over and gently kiss her forehead then walk out to my room and go back to sleep.

* At School *

Now that Alana’s back in school makes things 10x as bad as they were before, especially because me, her, Siyara, the guys, the girls, Marcus, & O all have History together. Plus for some reason, I don’t talk to the guys anymore.

I miss my brothers, but obviously they don’t miss me. All throughout class Siyara and Alana have been giving each other dirty looks. They almost went at it three times but Prince had to calm Siyara down. Now, I’m a complete outcast compared to them.

I guess I deserve it; I did put this all on myself.

* Lunchtimee. *

Marcus and O went out for lunch. I didn’t feel like tagging along this time. Instead, I stayed back to be with my real friends. I walk over to their table and stand there as the conversation goes quiet.

Me: “Can I sit here?” I sit in my regular seat at the table and there was still complete silence. Then Siyara throw a piece of apple at me; lunch soon becomes how it usually was.

Alana comes around rubbing all on my shoulders. Alana: “I had fun last night. We should do it again sometime.” She kisses my cheek, winks at Siyara then walks off.

Siyara’s face was blank and see was getting real heated. When she starts licking and biting her lips; that’s how you know something bad is about to happen. Siyara: “Roc, what’s she talking about?” I couldn’t bring myself to say a word.

Siyara: “Roc I swear this is the last time I’m gonna ask before someone gets hurt. What the fuck is she talking about?” Me: “* gulp * Me and Alana had sex. But Siyara I was-” Siyara pushes my tray on the table spilling everything on me.

Her right fist connected with my left jaw so fast; I didn’t even know what had happened until blood dripped from my mouth. She kicked my book bag across the cafeteria and left.

I sat there for a good three minutes to clean off my mouth then went to look for her. I found her crying hysterically by the water fountain with everyone else. She sees me coming.

Siyara: “Get him away from me!!” Me: “Siyara let me explain!” Ray holds me back from getting closer. Ray: “Roc you caused enough already just go.” Roc: “Ray stay out of this. This is between me and Siyara.”

Ray: “She doesn’t want anything to do with you so back the fuck up!” He pushes me back. I get in his face, both our heads together; squaring up to each other. Prod steps in holding him back. Prod: “Come on Ray. Calm down man.”

He pops me one to my left jaw and I lose it. Ray’s my brother and I’d never wanted to put my hands on him but right now…it was called for.

After security pulled us off, I wanted to go at him for more but when I saw what I did…I was wishing he’d done it to me.

*Home*

Perfect. Starting off my sophomore year being suspended for a week. I’ve really crossed the line now; this marks a very big turning point in my life. First losing Yaniese, now I might’ve lost my brothers, my everything, and my little sisters.

I have to find a way to make things right before everything comes crashing down. I’ve been out in the backyard all day; my parents, Prehia or Siyara don’t even wanna talk to me.

I walk in the house and into the kitchen with my hands in my pocket.

Me: “Siyara I know your still mad but please let me explain.” I try walking closer and she grips onto the glass plate on the counter; so I back up. Siyara: “I don’t need you to explain anything; I need you to leave me alone or something is gonna go wrong.”

Me: “I’m not leaving until we talk things out.” She looks at me coldly, and then throws the plate. It was like they just kept coming plate after plate; glass after glass. My parents come in yelling and telling her to stop.

There was no getting through to her. I get a chance to grab and wrap around her arms as she's turned around holding onto the knife. By now she was crying.

Me: “Siyara stop!” Siyara: “No!!! I’m tired of you always hurting me! I’m tired of you always breaking my heart then thinking you’re able to put the pieces back together!” I hold her hand with the knife, pulling her backwards and down on the floor so my back is up against the counter.

I was half crying and whispered in her ear calmly. Me: “Siyara drop the knife.” She take steady breathes and let’s go; I kick it away and she turns cradled in my arms and crying on my shoulder.

Siyara: “* sniffling * Why?” Me: “I had a lot on my mind. I was drunk, Alana was there and I got caught up in the moment. One thing led to another; I don’t know Siyara I wish I could take it all back.”

She sits up to wipe her eyes. Siyara: “Roc I want to, I do, but up until now…I don’t know if I could ever trust you again.”

Me: “No. No, no, Siyara please. This is the worst mistake I’ve ever made and I’ve gotten so many second chances in the past but please you not trusting me is the last thing I want. Give me another chance to do this right. I’ll prove it to you; I’ll be with you every second of the day, I’ll let you know what I’m doing before and while I’m out, I’ll stop selling, I’ll give up the drinking, I’ll even be the one to put a smile on your face again. Please don’t do this.”

Siyara: “You know what I need Roc? A MAN; someone who actually learns from his mistakes. A man that can be mature and handle his problems. A man that can stay TRUE to the one he claims to love and IS the love of his life.”

She gets up, letting go of my hands and walks upstairs.

I lost her. The one person in my life who loved me regardless of the stupid things I did. The one girl who’s been there with me through it all; the one who gave me the best love, daughter, and relationship that will be cherished forever. 

* When they say LOVE can be one of the hardest things you go through in life; it’s true. You make so many dumb decisions and expect things to be good all the time; but when do you know you’ve taken it too far? You know when you realize you’ve lost one of the most precious and valuable things in your life…it’s gone. More LOVE, heartbreak, and drama coming soon!!! <(^.^)> ;) 

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