He Kept Me Sane

part 16:

        We all left and got in the car. I told everyone to pack enough for a couple nights.
       
        Em and Andy and Andrew have no idea. (Quick A/N Andrew is Em and Andy's son, I just don't mention him that much. He is also referred to as Andy Jr. He is 1 year old.) But of course Andrew doesn't know. He is a baby. Duh.
   
       Em would slap me if she knew, Andy has a way with words, so he would for sure talk me out of it, and Gerard is forced to go with me. He tried to stop me, but he knows I want this more than anything.

       Did I mention that we are kinda in a tour bus right now? Sorry this is overwhelming. We didn't have enough space for everybody in another car, so a tour bus is all we have.

      I checked on all of the kids and then went to the little table we had in the bus. I started writing down a couple of lyrics. Em walked over and basically made me tell her where we were going.

      "Billie Joe Armstrong's house. I called him ahead of time and actually told him that I wanted to discuss music. I didn't say my last name." I said as Em's face fell.

      "Lex this is a mistake I don't think you know what you are setting yourself up for." She replied with a worried tone.

      "God,Em, you can never support my choices can you? I am not dumb, I am not a child, I am an adult who is smart and can make her own choices. I never had parents so stop trying to take that Mother role." I retorted, getting upset.

       "I am not saying you are a child, or that you are dumb, and I am most definitely not trying to act like your mother. I know you can make your own choices, but you never make good ones." She replied.

       "So my husband, children, band, career,are all bad choices? Those are all my choices that I chose. You are full of crap." I said, grabbing my pen and paper and getting up to go to my bed.

       I slept in my bed for an hour before Gerard woke me up. "Look alive sunshine. We're here."

       My eyes flew open and I gave gerard a quick peck on the lips before I grabbed Blair and Bloodrayne and ran out of the bus.

       I was so happy. Em and Andy stood next to me. Andy was smiling and Em had a blank face, with Andrew in her arms. Gerard hopped out and we walked up to the door.

        They all looked at me as I rang the doorbell. Gerard kissed my cheek to calm me down. The door opened and there was my father. He looked at us and said,"Sup follow me." Just the sound of his voice caused my eyes to water and my breath to hitch.

          Gerard picked up Blair and put his arm around my waist. He knew I was nervous. We followed him into his living room. It was super fancy.

          "So you guys wanted to talk about music with the master, Billie Joe Armstrong?" He joked as I looked up and said,"No actually. That was a lie. I have a question."

           "Go ahead, but why would you lie?" He asked. "After I ask you, you won't blame me."

             "I have green eyes. You have green eyes. I have black hair. You have black hair. You can sing. I can sing. Do you see a pattern?" I said, shaking. "First of all, honey calm down, I don't bite and if I ever would bite anyone, I would bite that chick over there. She seems pretty aggravated toward me so I just might have to." He started. "And second, yes me and you are similar."

        "Ok good you are understanding my point. Well my parents abandoned me when I was really young. Like stupid young. And I never got to know them. As a result, the world was dead to me for years. Then I met Em over here." I said pointing over to her."She is kinda mad at me, but that is a long story. She softened me up. Then years later I met Gerard. Then something pretty major happened to me and Em and I met Andy. Em already knew him from ahem past experiences. Well I married Gerard and we had Blair and Bloodrayne. Em and Andy got married and had Andrew. Well recently I wanted to know who my parents were. I took a DNA test that I know works well and it didn't know my mom for some reason, but it told me that you are my father." I explained.

      He froze and his eyes watered. "I thought the name Lex sounded familiar. So you are my daughter..." He said, walking over to me. My eyes watered as well.

      "Should be." I said, standing up, him observing my face. He hugged me and I hugged him back, me now crying.

       "I am so sorry. I had to." He croaked.

        "They made me."