Internship with Pentagon

Holding Hands

Here I am. In Korea. The city of Seoul. At a park. Sitting in front of Yuto Adachi.

Never did I ever think my life would come to this point.

Yuto and I have been on the rocks and I don't even know why, but here he is in front of me telling me he wants to fix things. I want to yell at him. I want to tell him how much of an idiot he is and ask him why he can't just tell me what's wrong.

On the other hand, I want to tell him not to worry about it because I don't care, but I can't because that would be a lie.

I do care. I care so much and I just want things to be okay between us. I can see the regret written on his face. I can see the bags under his eyes from not sleeping last night. I can tell he is just as hurt by my actions as I was by his. I want to hug him and hold him. I want to say I'm sorry for everything.

But instead of doing anything or even saying anything, I just sit there, staring at him like an idiot.

"Clair?" He waves his hand in front of my face, "Did you hear me?"

I was about to answer him when my phone went off. I check the caller ID to find it was WooSeok who was calling me.

"Don't answer that," Yuto commands when he sees who it is.

"I have to, Yuto." He pouts after hearing me say this. I ignore him though and answer the phone.

"Hey, WooSeokie. What's up?"

"Clair!" He yells nearly busting out my eardrum, "Where are you? We went back to the hospital and they said you had already left." WooSeok asks in confusion. I glare at Yuto while he just shrugs his shoulders.

"I woke up earlier and wanted to leave, so Yuto got me discharged. I assumed he told you all that." I explain, but in the background, I hear a female voice saying "What is she saying?" and "Where is she?" in English followed by a male voice saying "Damnit. I don't understand what anyone here is saying." in English.

"WooSeokie," I say cautiously, "Who was that?"

"Oh, uh, funny story. I think your parents are here at your dorm." He nervously chuckles.

"What?" I yell. I'm pretty sure this time I definitely blew out his eardrum.

I instantly hang up the phone and rush towards the car not even caring that I couldn't drive it. I knew Yuto would follow and he did. I was too panicked to think straight and sitting still in the car only made it worse. I was fidgeting and started to chew on my nails without realizing it.

"Clair, what's wrong?" his concern only grew in my silence.

"My parents," I say as if he is supposed to know exactly what I mean by that. So, I follow up with "They are at my dorm along with the boys."

I wait for him to take his turn in yelling. I wait for him to tense up and start panicking along with me. I wait for the car to swerve as the news gets to him, but none of that happens. Instead, he looks at me briefly and calmly.

"Well, chewing on your nails isn't going to help anything, okay. So stop," he said using that commanding voice of his. Normally, that voice would get some sort of reaction from me, but not this time.

I could hear him talking and I knew he was right, but I was so stressed and worried that I didn't even realize that I was still chewing on my nails until he grabbed my hand and held it.

I froze in place, staring at his hand intertwined in ours as if they were matches waiting to find each other. Electricity shot through my hand and up my arm, until it reached my heart, making it beat fast and loud. I stiffen at the sudden physical contact.