Not Meant To Be

Chapter 3

This chapter is dedicated to CodyHainline

Liam ^^

Liam's POV
I woke up to the sound of pounding on the locked door.

“Go away”, I mumbled as I turned over and tried to go back to sleep.

“No. Liam you better open this door or I’ll break it down. You know I will”, He threatened. God, I know that voice. Why can't he just leave me alone?

I weighed my options before I grumpily got out of bed and unlocked the door and snatched it open.

“What?”,I barked as I looked at him. God he looked so good.

I watched as his eyes scanned me and I knew when he met my gaze again he was disappointed. My skin was pale, I had dark circles around my eyes. My hair and beard grew out because it’s been months since I cut it, my body felt sleepy and tired even though I’ve been doing nothing but sleep and lay on the couch.

“You’ve been cutting again”, He said pointedly.

I just shrugged and walked back into the room and sat on the couch. The curtains were drawn and I hadn’t seen the sun in months.

I watched as he walked into the room and looked around. Files were stacked all haphazardly on my desk, and I've always prided myself on my neatness, beer bottles scattered the floor and then there was me, I also haven't been taking my tablets. The room smelled like blood, beer and sweat, it also smelled like depression and misery. Not a good combination at all.

“Why are you doing this?”, He asked sadly as he sat down next to me.

I scooted further away from him and sat on the further side of the couch. He looked upset and sad when I did that but I didn’t care.

“Your parents,your siblings  are worried about you and so am I. You’ve been like this for months and any attempt to get you out, you just burrow in here further. You haven’t cut in years and now you started again. Is it because of me?", He asked softly and I didn't reply.

"Look your mate", I spat out the word as if it was vile, "is probably wondering where you are. You should go before he thinks I've jumped your bones", I said and turned away from him to look at the wall.

Oh how I wanted to jump his bones. He looked so good, so handsome and I probably look like a train wrecked hobo.

"Daniaal is fine. We're all worried about you Liam. We're your pack, your family. We won't judge you, no one will. Just come out and we'll help you. We all will. It hurts me to see you like this", He said and I could've sworn I saw his eyes fill up with tears.

"Why are you here?", I asked instead.

He can just get this over with and we can be done here. I don't want to look at him, his mark and not feel anything other than pure yearning for him.

How and why am I feeling this way? He's not my mate and hell he already found his, so why does it hurt so much? Why does it burn my skin, why does it make me weak and lightheaded? I don't know what happens but I know it's when Caleb and Daniaal are being intimate. We don't share a bond so why does it feel like this? Am I obsessed with him? Even Hades is miserable. Hades, the once strong powerful, albeit insecure wolf is not so strong now. He's whimpering and whining as we look at Caleb. He's also seeking to be with Soka, Caleb's wolf.

"I already told you. I'm worried about you. You're cutting again and I know you haven't taken your tablets. Liam you could get hurt again. Remember last time?

And you're drinking. You never drink! You don't come out of this office, you don't eat, and don't lie to me. That food over looks stale and untouched at all. You haven't even touched that plate of food that the pack left for you. Your parents haven't seen you in months, Hunter and Madelyn Rose haven't spoken to you. They've all tried and they can't reach you at all. They're worried and scared Liam", He said and leaned a hand over to touch mine gently.

I jerked my hand away and leapt off the couch and stood off to the side.

"Is that why you're here? They couldn't get me to open the door so they sent you. They knew you'd get me to open the door and here you are. I'm sorry they dragged you away from your precious mate to come and talk to me. The man who's nothing but an ex to you and a past. I'm sorry that your mate asked you to sever bonds with me and I'm sorry that my parents were desperate enough to call you here. Tell them I'm fine. I'll come out when I'm ready and I feel like I can deal. Please leave Caleb. Like you said before,we're done and I'm just your ex. Please don't come to see me again simply because my parents want you to", I said sadly and disappointedly.

Did you honestly think he came because he cares about you or that he wants you back in his life? Pathetic, that evil voice sneered.

"Liam please. Just listen to me. I can help you. I can heal you. I just need you to want to get better. I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry you feel like this. I'm sorry that I came after I just walked out of here months ago. I'm sorry. Please just let me help you get better", He said desperately.

"You can't help me Caleb. Do you know I feel about you? I'm in love with you. Completely, utterly and insanely in love with you. I can't stop. I can't see you with someone else, no matter what I tell myself. I can't bear to see you with Daniaal. And my wolf can't either. He can't bear to see Soka with someone else. He's hurting just as much as I am. And I don't know what to do. If you can help me stop feeling this for you, I'll be willing to get help. But until then, please just leave me alone", Was what I wanted to say.

I wanted to tell him everything because I've always told Caleb everything. He's always been my everything and the one place I felt safe. He was the one person I could always talk to, who gave me sound advice and make me feel like I'm okay. That I can do this. That I'm not messed up. That maybe just maybe, a part of me is worthy enough to be loved by such a beautiful person with a beautiful soul.

"You can't help me Caleb. I'm not okay. Not in the slightest. Right now I'm not okay. Maybe in a little while I will be. I'll get better on my own and I don't need you or anyone else to come knocking on my door and trying to help me get better. That just makes it worse. Leave me alone. Please", I said instead and walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind me.

I bit my lip hard and covered my face in my hands as I sobbed softly. I can't do this. Why does it hurt so bad? Why? Luna, I just want this pain to be over with.

Little did I know that Caleb was on the other side, hands pressed to the door and tears pouring down his own face. He was only thinking of one thing, How do I save the man I love?