Not Meant To Be

Chapter 4

This chapter is dedicated to raccoon1107. Btw I love the user name and profile picture 🤩😂😂.

Liam's POV

I looked in the mirror and watched my reflection stare back at me sadly. I smiled and watched the man in the mirror grimace in return.

And then all of a sudden I looked at myself. I mean really looked at myself. This was the man who I'd become. My skin was ashy, pale in colour. I had dark black circles under my eyes and my eyes itself looked so dull and lifeless. My hair was thick and dirty. I can't remember the last time I actually went outside and actually spoke to my pack members. My parents,siblings, Him. Just the thought of him made me upset and teary eyed.

"Hey man", I heard a voice say and I jerked up and looked in the mirror.

It was me. Not me now but me before all this mess. He looked so happy and handsome. So unlike the person I've become now.

"How are you talking?", I asked and he just shrugged his shoulders with a small smile on his lips.

"I'm always here. I've always been here. You've just been two deaf to hear me call you", He said and smiled a dazzling smile.

"I don't understand", I said and watched him as he looked at me sadly.

"I know you don't. But you will. You do. Now you do. You looked at yourself in the mirror a minute ago. Did you like what you saw? We used to look like this", he said and gestured to himself, "what happened? I'll tell you. You couldn't stop thinking about Caleb. You're like this because you couldn't let him go. It's been four years Liam. Four years. He's happily mated and you're here stuck on a man you fell in love with before you even knew about mates. I'm sorry he isn't here but you have to make a decision for yourself. You can't keep on going on like this. They're all worried about you. Your parents, your siblings, friends, your family. Even he is. He's not coming back and he never will. So what are you going to do about it? He loved you Liam and you have to accept that. Look at that tattoo you carved onto your heart and you'll know what to do. I'm sorry it's come to this but... I'm waiting for you", He said and smiled and winked at me before he was gone.

I blinked to clear the tears from my eyes and was shocked and terrified to see the man who was staring back at me. God it hurt so much to see him. See me.

"I know what I have to do", I nodded and turned away from the bathroom mirror.

I walked into the room and for the first time in four years opened the curtains.

"Fuck", I swore as the bright light hit my eyes. It hurt, it was so bright.

I turned around and surveyed the room around me.

Dirty clothes lay strewn around the room, wolfsbane bottles, alcohol bottles, dirty food containers littered the floor. It was a mess. I turned the music on to my favorite song, it always reminded me of Caleb.

I jerked when I realized that I could say his name without pain, I could say his name. I'm so sorry, so so sorry, I thought.

I started cleaning up the room. I threw all the dirty clothes down the laundry chute, grabbed a few dustbin bags and started throwing all the dirt inside. I cleaned up the bathroom as well, I didn't scrub the walls or mop the floor but I tidied up the room. I changed my bed sheets and made my bed. I glanced into the mirror and fingered my beard and long hair.

I grabbed a fresh clean pair of clothes, my chinos, a button down shirt and underwear. I walked into the bathroom and pulled out my razor.

I smiled when I thought of the man who spoke to me almost two hours ago. He would be happy. I know he would. I started shaving my beard and trimmed my hair. When I was done, I felt different. The good type of different. Like I was myself again, like I can be better. I know I can't go back to the way I was and I'm okay with that. I'm happy with the decision we made.