Perfect?

Chapter 22

A/N: I'm very sorry for not uploading in ages but I don't have time to write lately and I'm in an kind of low inspiration phase so it may take longer for me to update the next time too... I'm sorry. Due to the reasons named above,this chapter is kind of a short one and I didn't double check it for any spelling mistakes.
Thank you for your understanding!

(Beca's POV)

"Mmmhhh....these are just delicious." I said and pointed at the pancakes with my fork

"Thank you.",Chloe smiled,"but be careful with the fork."

"I'm just gonna pretend you didn't just say that. Well,as I just said,these are just delicious but I bet there's something even more delicious than those pancakes: Me!"

"Can't you concentrate on eating?"

"My mind is concentrating on eating,on imagining you eating me out. Chloe, I want you now."

"Beca eat the fucking pancakes! Or I am not doing anything with you today anymore!" Chloe screamed

"Chill. I'm eating,there's no reason to freak out like that."

"I'm sorry,my emotions went wild. Maybe I'm getting on my period.I-I- I am confused."

"I hope you're not."

"But it's time."

"Anyways, you can still fuck me,right?" I said and smiled

"Y-yes. I- I can."

"Chloe what's wrong with you? Aren't you feeling well. You look kinda pale."

"I'm feeling faint." she said and fell of her chair

"FUCK!"

I ran up to her and tried to get her back to being conscious,but she didn't. I checked her body and looked if there were any injury. And then I saw that her whole arm was bleeding underneath her shirt. What the fuck did she do? And how come I didn't notice?

**

We were at the hospital and a doctor talked to me about what happened with Chloe. She said it was caused by Shock.

"Your body enters shock when you don't have enough blood circulating through your system to keep your organs and tissues functionisong properly. It can be caused by any injury or condition that affects the flow of blood through your body. Shock can cause multiple organ failure and lead to life-threatening complications.There are many types of shock."

"And is she going to be ok again?"

"Yes of course. We stopped the bleeding and you called us in time. That was an really exemplary behavior,people like you are good role models. She will be back to normal if there aren't going to be any complications. Do you know what caused her wound ?"

"No. And it drives me crazy."

"Ok,then I'm going to leave you and your friend alone. Maybe try talk to her and find out what was causing her wound in the first place."

"She's my girlfriend. And yes I'll do that."

"Wow."

"What ?"

"Are you guys lesbian?"

"Yes,we are. Is there a problem?"

"Isn't one of you supposed to be more male like?"

"What the hell?"

"There's always one woman who dresses and acts like a man in lesbian relationships. That makes it more acceptable for others."

"I think you should shut up now before I make you ready for the hospital!"

"Ok, so you are the man like person in the relationship. Women aren't that aggressive."

"Listen to me you fucking homophobic asshole! I'm a woman like any other woman and I love a woman. If one of us would dress up like a man , I or she would love a man. And that's not what it means to be lesbian. Maybe a few lesbians are doing that and that's totally ok, and they are lesbian too just a different kind, and many of them still look like women, but if you don't have something nice to say about us lesbians, then shut up and thrust yourself your fucking prejudices in your fucking ugly homophobic ass!"

"Dis.Respect.Ful."

"You are disrespectful!"

"Imma just leave."

The doctor left and I went to Chloe's bed.

"Hey." I whispered "I'm sorry for that woman."

"It's ok. I guess we'll have to get used to shit like that...so you wanna know why I was bleeding right?"

"Yes,babe. What happened?"

"I was feeling bored,alone in the kitchen, with so many knifes...You were asleep so I thought maybe I could try those knifes on my arm. Just out of full boredom...I thought my sleeve ist going to hold the wound closed...."

"Are you crazy?"

Chloe just looked down on the ground.

"Chloe,what are you hiding? Please tell me what's going on. You don't cut yourself so hard without a reason. Do you have depressions ? I'm serious. It would be possible. Do you?"

All that was coming out of Chloe's mouth were weird noises. She seemed very vulnerable and helpless. Then tears left her eyes. I gave her a hug.

"If there's anything bothering you,please just tell me. I just want to know that you're ok... so I can be ok. I can't be ok without you being ok,you know? I wanna help."

"I'm sorry."

She started to cry...