Disappointed// Ethan Dolan Fanfic

Chapter 21

"Does anyone want to come get milkshakes with me?"

It was starting to get cold since the sun was getting ready to go down, so everyone agreed to go get some food at the food shack down at the other side of the beach.

As I get out of the ocean, I began to shiver. I go to my backpack and realize I forgot my sweatshirt in my car. Great.

As we all begin to walk towards the shack on the other side of the beach, Ethan comes up next to me.

"Hey."

"Hi," I turn to look at him. He had thrown on a sweatshirt and was still wearing his blue swim trunks. His hair was an absolute tangled mess from the salt water, but mine probably looked worse. I could just feel the knots forming in my hair as we spoke, from the mixture of the wind and it being half dry.

"Are you cold?" He asks watching me shiver with my arms crossed, "Do you want my sweatshirt?"

"No it is okay, you will be cold then." I say looking up at him.

"I don't care. I'd rather have you warm." He says with the cutest smile on his face.

"Are you sure?" I felt bad but I felt like I was about to turn into an ice cube.

"Yes, I am positive." He removes his dark blue sweatshirt to reveal the muscle tank he was wearing earlier. He holds it out to me.

"Thank you," I blush as I take it.

I throw it on and it fits me like a dress. It almost reaches my knees, but I don't care because this has got to me the softest, warmest sweatshirt I have ever worn in my life. And the best part is, is that it smells exactly like Ethan. I know, big surprise there, but I can't help but savor every moment in his sweatshirt.

"RACE YAH," Arron yells to no one in particular while he tears in front of the group sprinting like his life depended on it. Everyone takes off after him running till we all reach the shack around the same time.

Grayson dramatically collapses to the floor while everyone is panting like we just ran a marathon.

"We really need to get into shape," Cameron laughs while everyone tries to catch their breath.

We all walk into the shack and get in line. Everyone orders the type of milkshake they want.

I was the last one to order since it was my first time here so I wasn't sure what to get. They all sounded so good, but I end up choosing mint chip.

Once we were all finished with our milkshakes, we set out back to our stuff across the beach.

The sun was about to go down any second, so the sky was a soft pink and blue. That with the mixture of the ocean and the sound of the waves, made me pause once again to admire how our earth is so beautiful.

"Ready?" I got pulled out of terance. Ethan was standing next to me, beginning to walk backwards. Everyone else had already left and was pretty far in front of us.

"Yah sorry, how long was I standing there?" I ask with a laugh. I always seem to space out and lose track of time when I am so happy.

"Not too long," he says as he turns his back to me, starting to walk back.

"So I am guessing you like the beach?" He asks me as I catch up to him.

"Maybe a little too much," I say, "I've missed it a lot." I look out over the waves as the wind picked up again causing my hair  to fly around my face. I grab my hair which was now mostly dried but still disgusting and put it off to the side.

"I don't think that's a bad thing." I look over at him to find him already intensely looking down at me as we continued to walk.

"What isn't a bad thing?"

"Liking something too much."  He looks out in the distance and shakes his head.

"Really? I think when you like something, especially a person, too much something bad always ends up happening." I've had so many experiences where I like someone so much it hurts, and then it just never works out. Either they just don't like me, cheat on me, whatever, but it always leaves me in the same way. Alone and sad.

"Why do you think that?" He looks to me again this time with sadness in his deep brown eyes. 

"It's all I've ever known." He pauses and I turn my body towards him.

"I don't know what you have been through, but I know everything happens for a reason and that someone just wasn't right for you. No matter how much you wanted it to be. But what I do know is when I'm with you I feel like I've never felt before. And I've been wanting to tell you for awhile that
I like you. A lot. Maybe too much, but that's not a bad thing."

The way he is looking at me is a way, nobody has ever before. He makes me feel like I am the only one on this beach and it makes it seem like time is frozen.

"I am scared that if I like you too much I'll lose you. Just like everybody else."

"I'm not going anywhere." He pulls me into a hug and I rest my head on his shoulder. I have been hurt so many times before that it's hard to let myself fall for someone when I know it will just end up badly and in heartbreak. But when I am with him it feels natural and I feel like myself again. He makes me feel so comfortable and appreciated and important.

I pull away from the hug and he doesn't let go of my waist. My hands are around his neck and we are just looking into each others eyes. Before I know it, his lips are on mine.

I have kissed a couple of guys before this but none of them can even begin to compare. His lips are so soft and fit perfectly against mine. It seems like it was meant to be.

We begin to hear our friends cheering over by the beach and I can just hear Vanessa screaming her head off. Ethan smiles and then we pull apart to look at our friends. Vanessa is jumping up and down and they are all yelling. Ethan laughs as he pulls me in for another kiss, this time with a little more force causing us to tilt over.

He pulls away much sooner than I would have liked and he grabs my hand.

"I am not going anywhere any time soon."