Insanely in Love

7

Over the next few weeks, Im more trusting.. more vulnerable

I tell them everything, I try not to get into fits, they dont have to put me in restraints thank god..

Maybe Im getting better? Maybe Im normal now..

Normal 

I just wanna leave, I wanna see mom again..I wanna see auntie Angelica and Maria, 

I...I wanna hang out with Theodosia..but, normally, like out to see a movie or talk over ice cream.. I hug my stuffies to my chest trying to go to sleep.I cant though..

I stay up the whole night crying, as I do often. In the morning Theodosia comes in, making me smile. 

"Theo!" I smile hugging her, she laughs softly. Im obsessed, I love her laugh..

"Phillip, doll I brought you a secret treat" I step back.

"Wh-what is it?"

"I bought you some taffy, its good try it, dear" I take the colorful candy from her slowly. I unwrap it and  feel how sticky it is, I knead it abit. She giggles, "Phillip, try it. Its fruity" I smile stuffing the candy into my mouth and chewing it. 

"Mmm!" she laughs at my reaction. I chew it for abit, probably should have taken a smaller bite.

"Done yet?" I smile and nod.

"Okay, heres your meds. You wanna go down to the main room today?"

"umm..can I bring my stuffies?"

"Doll, they.." she thought for a second."They look tired dont they? You should leave them here while you make friends" I smile, shes right. I probably tire them out.

"Yeah! " She smiles. "OK, Ill be back in 15 minutes"

I giggle, putting my stuffies in the blankets and neatly lay their heads on my pillow. Theo eventually comes back and we head to the main room. Some of the kids look scared of me. I sit down in the corner and begin to color in the provided coloring books. Mommy would be so proud of how far Ive come with my coloring skills, Im best in the hospital. She says I get my drawing abilities from Dad..I smile as I finish coloring a seal, Eventually Im talking and playing with some other kids. Thats when..

"Phillip Hamilton to door A3, Phillip Hamilton door A3" I look up at nurse Theodosia, she takes my hand as we walk to the room. Its weird how much she has to treat me like a kid, when Im taller than her.

I realize the room we are in looks alot like a principles office. A man sits on the other side of the desk.

"Phillip, we have a suprise for you."

"Wh-what is it?" I ask excitedly he points a t the door and thats when she walks in.

"MOM!" I say excitedly, getting up and hugging Eliza. Im so much taller than her, she looks older than I remember, but I guess time will do that to ya.

"Oh, baby mama's missed you so much.." We're crying hugging each other tightly. 

"Wh-whys it been so long.."

"Ive been caught up at work at the orphanage.."

"W-wait am I going home?" I smile hopeful.

"No, baby..Im sorry"

"Why? Ive been good! I-is this another dream!?" I ask pushing her away from me.

"Phillip, its me, Im really here"

"Then take me away from this hell! Mom! Dont you care!?"

"Phillip-"

"Mom! I want to leave, I hate it here, I agree, I cooperate the best I can but god I hate it!  I hate you!" I storm out the room and run to my room, or I try to. nurses catch me and have to do it them self.