Insanely in Love

17

It's better to write out your sadness and feelings then to feel and act on them!
Right?
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I wake up hours later, I'm laid down in the most comfortable bed ever, I feel like I'm on a cloud. I see Frances cleaning the wax from the carpet as I slowly sit up and feel the back of my hair I realise it is also in my hair. I sigh.

"Oh, goodness your awake. Finally, I was very worried..Hey, let's get you a shower, yes? Then we can have dinner." She smiled, helping me up, I pull away from her touch and walk into the bathroom, she helped me start the shower laid out new clothes for me. Afterwards she explains what to use and then leaves.

I undress and get in the shower, thoughts running threw my brain as they always do in the shower. I'm the most vulnerable right now. For one I'm completely naked, obviously. I'm always spaced out, I can see all my scars, I make new ones by scratching my arms to blood point. That's why I was checked on. But Frances didnt know to check on me, plus it would be weird. She's like..my sister.

Hai so I wrote this when I was still in Christmas In The Land Of Oz and now Im..well, I just went out with friends for the first time sense the show Saturday. The show was in December. I'll probably post a ooc chapter after this. For now let me finish the chapter ^^

I wash myself quickly because its know its best if I don't look at myself right now. I know that if I stare and I think for to long I'll already be failing myself. Failing myself since...I guess my existence failed myself..

I smile at the scents of the soaps. We can't have scented soap at the facility. Here we have..Ooo~ citrus shampoo? I don't even remember what citrus is! But it smells good! Strawberry conditioner too, I love strawberries. Thankfully I know not to eat soap-

After about a 10 minute shower, I get out, wrap myself in towel and lay in bed. I change into clothes and glare at my curly hair- sometimes I'm quite thankful they didn't let me grow it as long as I want.

Knock knock "Philip, can I come in? Are you decent?"
"Uh..Im still unstable-"
"Are you dressed?"
"Yeah!"

She came in and smiled "That wasn't to bad, was it? Dinner is ready, you may come downstairs" she invited

I nod. Time to eat my first meal outside the facility