Group Call ↣ Quackity

twenty four - memories

chloe pov

trigger warning! if youre uncomfortable with pill usage or implied drug use, skip the second flashback!

it was in the summer. last summer. all three of so months of it, that me, kappa, & katelynne got close.

of course, ani had brought us close. she thought me and kappa would get along. I thought this was kinda stupid just because I'm way more high energy than kappa led on to be.

he met me in a dark place, you see? and when youre in the situation I was you take what you have and hold on go it. and after all that went on junior year I needed an anchor. so he became my anchor. we would always meet up whenever we could and he kept me grounded for a long time. and yeah, he was really determined to help me. and he did. and so did my parents, and brandon, and ani, and katelynne.

"so? you and kappa?" kate had smiled at me that day. we were hanging out by the lake, talking & eating. I spent most of that summer with her.

"its not like that." okay, that was a lie, it was like that, but she didn't need to know right now.

"you can't bullshit a bullshitter chloe." she rolled her eyes, grabbing my hand. "you can tell me anything, thats what best friends are for, right?"

"okay... well... its been a thing for a month. or so. and its not that attached. its just fun." I smile at her. she smiled back. back when she wasn't trying to wreck me, she really was a warm person.

i miss her.

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I wake up. I remember the dream that was more like a memory. I wipe the hair out of my face and rub my eyes. I turn & jump as I see alex still sleeping, arm plopped awkwardly. my head hurts. my legs hurt. my everything hurts. ew. hangover.

I see alex open his eyes & I smile at him. he smiles, grabbing me by the waist and pulling me back down with him. "can we just like, not wake up for another four hours?" he asks.

"we gotta. we should probably tell the others we didn't die." I say, getting closer to him. "about what happened..."

"we don't have to talk about it." he suggests. "its not a huge deal."

"no, it is. because it just dawned upon me that there's a lot about me you don't know and I dont want that between us. and I'm sure there's stuff I just never learned about you."

"then today," he pulled his arms tighter around my waist. "lets just spend it together. without the others. and you can tell me what I don't know."

"you know what? right now that sounds really great."

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kate took me by the shoulders. I sat on the floor, sobbing. but she was in front of me and her blue eyes looked mad and I hate making her mad. she doesn't deserve it. "I'm really sorry." i say.

"no, don't  be sorry. we're just gonna put these away, alright?" she said, taking the bottle of ativan with her right hand.

i nod, as she puts it back in the cabinet. she gets down next to me, wrapping an arm around me. she lets me cry into her shirt. "they took my painkillers." I say quietly. "it was all I had left."

"no chloe." she says, pulling my head to her chest. "you have me. I'm never leaving you."

liar.

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"so," alex started. I had taken us to the park downtown. the one next to the lake. it was big enough we could walk around and talk the entire path. "tell me what I don't know."

"god, where do I even start?" I take his hand in mine. "I met my first ex, ben, through some friends at school. and he seemed really carefree & down for anything. and I like people like that. so he asked me out, and we started going to parties, and every now and then we'd use pills. and then he started using them way more than i ever did. so i was around it more, and i wanted it more. and then i got addicted. you know, like an idiot. so my parents found out and took all my pills away, and basically put me under house arrest. and the only person who was ever there for me..."

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"what are we watching, the vampire diaries or the walking dead?" kate said. she had box sets of both. me and her had a thing before all this happened of binge watching shows together. and I guess the way she thinks she can break my mind is by making it normal. taking me away from it.

"i dont care."

"i know you care. you hate the walking dead." she smiled sarcastically, popping the fifth season of the other show into my TV. she came back over to the couch, turning off all the lights and putting a big, fuzzy blanket over us. she grabbed the chips from the table beside us & we finished season five in those two days.

i slept through most of it though. but that weekend she didn't leave my side. she stuck by me when nobody else would. even my parents seemed apathetic.

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"she was by you when you needed her." alex seems to suddenly understand. "and then one day... she had it out for you."

"i trusted kate with my life. and it just kinda hurts."