Forbidden Love (Scrapped)

Chapter 31

I wake up and it is pitch black besides the moonlight shining through the window. No bad dreams, no notifications on my phone, Logan is not awake. I look to my clock and see it is 3 oclock. I rub my face and sit up in my bed. I know that there is no way I am going to go back to sleep anytime soon.

I put on my robe and grab my reusable water bottle. I head downstairs to the kitchen. I walk down the stares carefully, one at a time, holding onto the railing. Just to make sure I do not fall with how dark it is.

I reach the bottom of the staurs and hesd straight to the kitchen. I dump my water out and wash it out. I then walk over to the refrigerator and refill it with ice and water. However, me being the clumsy person I am, I drop it and water goes everywhere.

I fall to the floor and start crying. I bring my knees to my chest and bury my head in my knees.

"Hey are you okay?"

I look up and see Logan in the doorway.

"Yeah," I say while nodding my head. "Just dropped my water bottle and.I am still tired, therefor emotional."

She grabs a towel from a cubbard and walks over. She bends down and starts patting the floor.

"Well, I understand what it is like to be tired and emotional." She finishes up cleaning the floor. "But that wasn't just 'I'm just tired' emotionally. That was 'i've got some shit going on' emotional."

"Yeah." I chuckle and put my legs down. "I guess you could say that."

"Hey, I'm sorry." She turns to face me. "I shouldn't have said anything to Sierra especially that you confided in me. It wasn't my right. But, you can confide in me now."

I contemplate if I should talk to her about it. But i decide on not.

"Does this have to do with the girl you like?" She asks.

I nod my head.

"Well," she turns her head to look at the wall opposite of us. "I personally believe that people shouldn't date in high school. There is no point. Either one of you will leave, maybe both. You will both grow up. The only reason you see each other is because you are required to five days out of the week. You are trying to get your high school diploma, why would you want to distract yourself from that?"

She's right. I'm still in school. I want to go to college in Colorado. Adelaide has a job. I'm still in school. Not even college. I'm going to move away. And long distance is hard. With Adelaide having a full time job and me going to school full time, there won't be and time to talk.

"My point being," Logan continues, "don't worry about it. If it is meant to be, it will be. Just focus on yourself and finishing school. Focus on starting your life after graduating. Everything else will fall into place."

She wipes the tears off my face that were falling. I give a small smile in thanks.

"And one more thing," she says, "talk to Sierra please. She feels terrible and she misses you. We all miss you. She doesn't have the courage to do it."

I nod my head. "I miss y'all too."

"Y'all." She laughs. "You are the only person I know that says that."

I laugh with her.

"Now let's go to bed." She says.

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I wake up five hours later. I look over at Logan's bed and see that she is just waking up also.

"Hey how are you feeling now?"

"Good. Your advice was nice. Even though I didn't talk. I feel so much better."

I get out of bed to grab an outfit and head to the bathroom. I shower and change in the span of fifteen minutes. I am completely ready in twenty. That is the pro of not caring what you really look like. You just put on some clean close, maybe brush your hair/maybe just put it up in a bun, and just no make up. But that is my personal opinion.

"How do you do absolutely nothing to your physical appearance and still look amazing?" Logan asks while putting on her make up.

"I drink water more than any other liquid," I chuckle.

"Nah I love Coca-cola way too much," she says while putting on her mascara.

"You don't need make up either," I assure her

"HA" she exclaims and I shake my head in return.

I sit back down on my bed as she finishes getting ready. Breakfast is till 9:30 when school isn't in session.

After we finish breakfast we walk around campus. Me with my camera and her drawing. It is relaxing to just do something you love with someone you enjoy spending time with. I also like to watch Logan draw because you can see so clearly all the effort she puts into it. She is so concentrated. She includes every small detail. It is amazing. I admire that.

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This was an absolutely terrible way to end this chapter but oh well. Anyways it is 2 in the morning and I am absolutely exhausted because this is the thurd night in a row that I have stayed up this late.

Also I started my job today. Which is exciting so money!

I am also getting so many ideas for this book and I am writing them all down. After finishing this book I will be rewriting it. Not drastically. But there are parts of it that I am not completely satisfied with amd i want this book to be everything I want it to be. And I want it to be good. I honestly think that the changes I will make afterwards are much more exciting.

Also new song suggestion(s): Anxiety by Julia Michaels and 365 by Katy Perry