It's a lamp since I haven't had a good afternoon and I feel down.
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Patton took pride in being the best boyfriend he could be. Once his boyfriends all proclaimed the he was.
"The best!" "Amazing!" And "will always be the best!" This was the highlight of him, his proud achievement and his downfall. Once he was told he was good at something he takes it to heart.
He will do all he can to stay the best and be helpful and achievable, but once he get stressed he tries to hide it or just simply hide it with a smile. Failure wasn't a option, despite dating shouldn't he graded like getting a A or C to Patton his mind automatically does it. He has to be the best, he will be the best.
He was successful for a while! He was managing to make his three boyfriends happy and content, spending his time with each one equally and still being able to spend time for himself and such. But one day.
"Patton! You promised me to help with my studying!"
"Roman, Patton had promised me to help with my literature! I need a audience."
"Guys. Patton needs to help with his own things.."
They were arguing over his attention and the fact he had made one to many promises he couldn't keep. He scrambled as they argued trying to help roman with his hospitality studying as well as cleaning as well as coming and going in between his speech.
He was the best boyfriend. Upsetting anyone is failing.
Failure wasn't a option.
"Ah sorry!" Or "one sec!" This was his attempt to break down his workload but it wasn't working as he stared at Logan's annoyed expression or Virgil worried tone as he tried to get Patton to slow down but it wasn't working as he felt himself in his scrambled rush fall onto the carpet with a slam.
"No," he slowly raised his head, blood was rushing down his face, his nose was bleeding and he had carpet burns on his knees. "Patton! I'm afraid I can't keep waiting!" "Patton!" Logan and Romans' voice seem to combined and intertwined as one loud disappointment voice. Blood kept rushing out of his fingers and staining the floor.
Another mess he had to clean.
"PATTON!" The voice was growing annoyed and Patton felt his throat clogged up and he felt his eyes tearing up. There boyfriends voice was crowding around him, he felt himself start to shake and the need to curl up and hide washed over him as he slowly fell on to his side, his body racked with sobs as he heard there disappointed shouts.
"I'm sorry! I'm so sorry-" He babbled
Failure wasn't a option..
"Hush Patton breathe.." a more kinder voice than the shouts was heard and he sobbed louder. " count with me 1. 2.3"
And so he tried, dammit did he try!
"1."
Messing up.
"2"
You should know better!
"3"
You're failing.
"No Patton, oh angel you're not!"
That wasn't one of the harsh voices, the ones who strive him to be the best. No it was a more kinder and loving tone. It was Virgil's voice. Slowly opening his eyes, he saw Virgil's worried and scared face as he gently swooped him in for a hug. "Shh, shh Patton you're okay! We are okay." Patton didn't even realise he was still sobbing.
Logan and roman had arrived too, guilt and worry also etched into their faces as they to also comforted the poor Male.
He saw the worry in there eyes. His heart fell.
Failure wasn't a option..
But yet here he was messing up and not making them happy like they should. "No! No Patton we are happy. Sweetness we are." It wasn't Virgil ' voice this time it was Romans' who was petting his hair and tilting his head upwards to stop the blood flow. His heart winced as he saw Patton's bloody and teary face. "There, we aren't sad we are happy."
"I'm not the greatest when you are all sad," he finally heard his mouth speak, and this made Logan frown as he started wiping up the blood. "You are incorrect Patton."
Incorrect..
Never correct
Like a failure.
"You're always the best! You never fail to make us happy," Virgil voice pipped up as the blood flow stopped and now was helping clean up Patton face. This made him looked down, frowning. "But I've made you all sad and worry! How is that a great boyfriend?"
The tone of his voice, broken and weak made the other three hearts drop. It was clear that they by accident made him stressed, put to much pressure on there precious boyfriend. Virgil's kissed Patton cheek. "We are allowed to feel other things besides happiness but as a amazing boyfriend you're always there to experience those feelings with us,"
Roman and Logan nodded. "You are great Patton, not by doing everything by yourself but by being with us and enduring us." Roman smiled softly as Patton nodded. "I don't have to endure anyone. I love you all." This made Patton slowly feel a wave of warmth as his body slowly started to calm down. "We love you too angel," Virgil: ever with the nicknames .
"We can take a break huh? Why don't we get you a bath ran and then into bed." Logan spoke helping the bundle of boyfriends off the floor. "B-but Logan I have to help still a-and the floor is messy!" This made the oldest out of the three shake his head. "No, we are all stressed you of most we are going to have a calming day making our boyfriend happy!"
Failure!
You're making them worry-
"We care for you. So of course we are gonna worry!" It was Virgil. It was like he could read his mind, with that Virgil flashed a small smile. "I know how it feels Bambi. We all have demons." He felt himself slowly started to get undressed and in a wave of warmth and bubbles. Sniffing he closed his eyes.
"It's how we deal with them. How we remind ourselves that we are stronger than them." It was Romans voice as he was gently massaging his scalp. He felt content sweep over him and he let out a happy sigh.
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God. So toady I was in hospitality and we were doing a new recipe and everyone around me kept asking me what do you and what do we collect even though it was on the sheet. And I was struggling myself so I had a small break down.
Even in the end I couldn't make the recipe.. so this is what it is based of off.
My teacher says I'm a A so in my head that means i need to know everything and not allowed to fail.
But I'm happier news I'm getting my Haie dyed blonde!
