Therapy

This is goodbye

-Toms POV-
I ram and ran tears streaming down my face. I kept falling because of my stupid leg. His words kept running through my head.

No ones gonna hurt you...

I love you...

I clenched my eyes shut. Lies! Lies! LIES!!!

I made it to the bridge. Car. Person. Car. Person. Bike. Officer. Car. Dog. I listed off what I saw. I ran my hand through my hair as I walked up and down, back and forth across that bridge. There were at least three officers looking for kids who were trying to commit suicide.... but they past me by five times and didn't question me.

It was raining slightly and the sky was grey. I was contemplating my life. Instead of one counter voice in my head, well now I had two.

Jump! Just do it! There's nothing here for you!

Don't listen to him! There is everything here for you, Edd, Matt, Tord!

They don't love you they are just road blocks! Come on don't be a bitch!

Your not a bitch by not jumping! Jumping is the cowards way out! Your stronger to show resiliency!

If you jump you will be free from the pain! No more betrayal no more cowering in fear.

If you jump you'll cause others pain because they care! Don't be selfish!

I cried. I gripped the rail looking out over the edge. My heart was thumping out of my chest. The Adrenalin rush was something I swear I could get high off of. I pulled out my phone and went to Tords contact. My hands shaking. I smiled through my tears for the first time in a long time.

I made my decision.

I'm gonna jump.

I sent one text to Tord.

My location.

Because I knew that by the time he'd get here, I'd of already jumped.

I looked around no one was close to me enough to grab me before I did it.

"THOMAS!!!!" I heard Tori's voice in the background. But the cars passing by cut her out. I looked back and she was on the other side, she wasn't getting to me anytime soon with all these cars passing by. I smiled at her through my tears. It's gonna be ok now I can be with my parents.

I climbed up onto the railing swung my legs over looking down into the ocean below.

I looked back at Tori. She was terrified and sobbing. "it's gonna be ok Tori!" I called out to her. I smiled. "I can be with my parents now!" I said.

-Tords POV-
I ran my hand through my hair stressed. I had scared him away. I thought about going after him. But I thought maybe he just needed to cool down. I sat in my chair just thinking.

After a few minutes my phone buzzed. I picked it up. Tom?

I opened the message. I was confused. He sent his location. He's at a bridge?

Then I connected the dots.... and my heart broke. "Shit!" My eyes went wide as a tear slipped down my cheek. I grabbed my phone and ran out the door.

My phone was ringing I answered as I ran. It was about a ten minute walk. He fucking planned this! That idiot! "TORD please you have to get here now!" Tori shouted through the phone in tears. "W-where Is he?" I asked. Afraid it's gonna be too late. "He's sitting on the rail! He could let go and everything will be over!" She sobbed. "Tori listen to me you need to calm down, talk to him coax him just stall him until I get there! I'm almost there!" I said hanging up. I tripped.

"Fuck!" I got up and felt the stinging on my cheek, hands and knees but I didn't care. I got there I stayed on the edge of He walkway area I looked up at the railing and down the bridge a ways was Tom. Tears spilled down my cheeks. The thought of him gone forever broke my heart. The cars passing threw gusts of wind everywhere. Traffic had stopped as I walked down towards Tom. There were three officers trying to coax him down. Other people had stopped and trying to coax him down as well. They were stalling him and making him think but in the end I knew their words wouldn't be powerful enough to him.

"Please everyone step aside! I'm his therapist!" I said pulling out my ID showing it to the officers. They nodded and made people step aside. "Tom."

-Toms POV-
I swayed back and forth just ready to let go, to be free. "Tom." I froze. A tear slipped down my cheek. I didn't look at him. I was ashamed. But I listened to what he had to say.

"Tom come down from there, and we can go home and talk about this. You don't need to do this." He said. His words stung as more tears fell down my cheeks. He doesn't understand! "You don't understand!" I said quietly. "Then tell me so I do understand!" He yelled desperately. "Tom you have people that care about you! You've got Edd, Matt, Tori, Tamara, Matilda, Elle and me! If you do this what are we supposed to do huh? WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!?" I heard his sobs. "I need to be free from the pain... I can't take it anymore...nobody loves me! Everyone who's said that has lied!" I spat.

My mother's face popped into my head. I remember her gentle words.

"I love you Tommy bear."

I clenched my eyes shut biting back more tears. She was the only person that has EVER cared about me and she's gone!

"Tom I don't lie to you." He said. I knew this was true. Not once has he lied to me. He saved me from myself once, he saved me from the wrath of Elijah. I needed him but i needed to let go.

"If you love someone you let them go." I said. More of a sentence for me letting Tord go than him letting me go. But it could go both ways.

"Or you run away because you are scared!" He countered. My heart was racing.

I shook my head. I need to be with mother!

I opened my eyes. "Tom if you jump, then jump into my arms because I'm here to catch you EVERY DAMN TIME!"

I heard my mothers voice in my head. She was here...

It's not your time, it's ok to let someone else love you Tommy bear...

I turned around to jump into Tords arms but i slipped.

"THOMAS!!!" I heard Tords voice.

I closed my eyes. This was my fate after all. Tear drops flew out of my eyes as I plummeted through the air. My life flashed before my eyes. And I smiled through my tears the whole way down. Until I hit the water.

A/N: sorry for the cliff hanger 😅 is he gonna die?! 🤷‍♂️😱 let me know what you guys think.