Catching Fire: You and Me

Chapter 7:

i start shaking uncontrolably. how is this possible. Peeta is trying to comfort me, but hes just as terrified as i am.

Prim immediatley ran upstairs to her oom, and i ordered Amy to go comfort her.

"no....." i mutter through my sobbing and wailing.

"they cant do this!" Peeta cries. "your pregnant! its not fair!"

"well do you want them to hear?" i warn him. "i'll be fine. but what about you!" i shriek.

"i dont care what you say, Katniss. i'm going in with you..." he says, kissing the top of my head.

"i dont want to loose you! you cant!" i protest through my tears.

"i cant protect you from the Capitol...." he whispers.

i look up at him and he tries his best to smile, but we both know we're not happy at all.

all of the sudden Peeta picks me up bridal style and starts walking out of the living room.

"where are we going?" i whine.

"Haymitch's house." he says and pushes the door open with his elbow. 

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we get to Haymitch's and he lays me down on the couch.

"i have a plan." Peeta blurts out to our slightly drunken mentor.

"oh, look! Bread Boy has a brilliant idea!" he slurrs sarcastically.

"i'm going in." Peeta explains.

"i knew you'd say that." Haymitch says and rolls his eyes. "now you do realize they wont let you both win this time right?" he asks.

"yeah.... i know...." Peeta says as his eye sheds a tear. "Katniss is going to win..." he mutters.

thats when i've had enough.

"No!" i shout standing up and pushing the hair out of my face. "i'm not letting you die Peeta!" i say as a new wave of tears cover my face.

i stumble into his arms and burrow my face into his chest. "shh its okay Katniss. you'll be fine. an you'll have the baby." he say softly into my hair.

"i cant do it on my own! i need you!" i wail.

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when Peeta left to go see his family Gale finally came by.

"Catnip!" he says when i open the door. he pulls me into a hug and i hug him back, thankful that hes talking to me again- even if its only because im going to die...

"i'm so sorry!" he says.

"its okay. its my fault." i say into his shirt.

"wait? what the hell is going on!" he says looking downward slightly.

damn.

he sees my stomach.

im still under 5 months and its not really showing but im wearing a tight shirt so i guess he can tell. 

i try to suck in and raise an eyebrow. "what do you mean?" i ask nonchalantly.

"there." he says pointing to my shirt.

"what? are you calling me fat?" i say like im offended.

"no. im calling pregnant! are you?" he growls, glaring at me.

"no! i am not! excuse me for taking advantage of my wealth and putting a pound or two on!" i shout. "you know its one thing if you werre going to come here and comfort me over the fact that im going to DIE! but accusing me of being PREGNANT! thats just wrong! get out of my house!" i scream at the top of my lungs.

"whatever. see ya, prego!" he says sarcastically before leaving and slamming my door shut.

i slump up the stairs and mentally slap myself when i remember Amy and Prim are still here.

"Katniss? what was that all about?" Amy asks, her eyes drifting down to my stomach.

"Gale being stupid....thats all.... it was nothing." i mutter softly.

but she sees right through it.

"what are you not telling me?" she demmands kindly.

"nothing! okay! just leave me alone!" i shout.

"Katniss!" she demmands.

"what!" i shout back.

"tell me! now!" she orders looudly.

"i'm pregnant! okay!" i scream. "just leave me alone!" i add before running into my bedroom crying.

Prim comes in after a few minutes and sits on the edge of my bed.

"is it true, Katniss?" she asks in a whisper.

i nod my head and her face lights up.

"Katniss! thats wonderful! whos is it?" she asks delighted.

"Peeta. who else would it be? certainly not Gale!" i say.

Prim sqeuals loudly. "yay! your going to have a baby Katniss!!!! i'm so happy for you!!!" she says.

"im not." i say blatantly. "you do realize i going into the games. with Peeta. and one or both of us are going to die. and thats what you worry about?"  i ask.

"sorry." she says. she reaches over and gives me a big hug. "im so sorry, Katniss!" she says starting to cry as well.

"its okay Prim. its fine." i say hugging her back. "but i think im going to stay with Peeta for a few days, alright?" i say softly.

"okay..." she says getting up and calmly walking out the door.

Why is it that no matter what i do, someone is sad!