Love is All That I Fear- Enoch O'Connor X Reader

Chapter 3- The Deal

Y/N's POV

I froze. Here I was with Enoch O'Connor locking lips.

Obviously, I kissed him back. I wrapped my arms around him, one hand running through his hair. Soon enough, we pull away. He smirks at me. I stand there, speechless, and scarlet red.

"Well, that got you to shut up, didn't it?" he snickered. "Now, back to what I was saying. I only wanted to bring you up here to talk. Look, I know that we hate each other, but there are things we both want."

I nod, listening to what he says.

"I want more freedom from the Headmistress. Ever since she grounded me a few weeks ago, she basically hasn't let me out of her sight," he explains.

"So what's that got to do with me? It's not my fault that you have no self-control whatsoever," I snap.

"Well, I have been in need of going into town and having a drink at the pub, but if I can't sneak out, I can't go. I need you to pretend to be my girlfriend, everyone already believes you are. I also was the one to tell Millard that, after he saw what happened this morning. Told 'em to tell everyone you were with me now, just to make this believable."

I think about this for a moment. Why would he chose me to pretend to be his girlfriend? And what will I get out of this?

"What is my benefit? Do I get something out of this?" I ask.

"Yes, you will. Why don't you tell me something you want, and I'll try to make it happen," Enoch says.

After he tells me that, I realize that I don't know what I want. Nothing he could give me anyways. I mean, I'd love to have a night out, but he'd never agree to take me with him. Besides, the last thing I want to do is babysit a drunk Enoch, because I know that's what would happen if I go. I don't even like drinking anyways, I'd rather be curled up in the library reading. Well, that's an idea! I could ask him to get me a new book, but I still have 7 shelves in the library I haven't read yet.

I guess I would also like something new to wear. Maybe a necklace, or a pretty ring? That might be expensive though. Well, if I pretend to be his girlfriend, he better know I expect a diamond ring.

"How about like, I don't know, a new necklace? One from outside of the loop from real time," I suggest.

"Done. We don't have to do anything in private, but while we're in front of people just act like you would if I was your boyfriend. That way, we both get what we want," he says.

"I forgot to ask, but what does me being your girlfriend have to do with Miss Peregrine trusting you?" I questioned.

"Well Darling, you're a typical 'good girl'. She trusts you, and if she thinks you care about and trust me she will too," he says, although I'm still not sure how it will all work out.

I nod, and I turn to walk out. Before I can, he stops me.

"And Y/N, one last thing. Make sure you apologize to everyone for 'lying', since we both know that you are really with me," he sharply says.

I nod my head and walk out of the room. Then, I go back to my room to tell Olive that Enoch isn't mad at her anymore.

Enoch's POV

The moment Y/N leaves, I turn around and bang my fist on my desk. What the hell is wrong with me? I couldn't man up enough to ask her to really be my girlfriend.

Of course I lied to her about the fake girlfriend thing. It would be nice to go out for a drink, Bird knows I need one, but I just wanted her. As soon as I kissed her, I panicked and didn't know what to do. I thought everything would go better than it did, but I guess I was wrong. Now, I was also responsible for buying her a necklace. Where would I get the money for that? She's probably expecting something nice too.

I mean, I could always make her one. I'm sure I could find something. I could make her a locket of some sort, and tell her I didn't know where to buy one. Yeah, that could work.

I go and sit down at my desk and take some clay out. At first, I play around with the shape, but I soon get a small heart shaped piece. I make a hole in the top of it for the actual necklace part to go through. Then, I put it on the other side of my desk to dry.

I start a battle between my homunculi. I sit back in my chair with my arms crossed. I can't believe that I didn't just ask her out. I've liked her for years, and she hates me. I thought I could do it, I really did. Why would she like me? I act like I hate everyone, and no one actually likes me. Sometimes I wonder if everyone here would be better without me...

Y/N's POV

After I explained to Olive that I wasn't mad, I went down to the library. I finished reading my book, and I was so lost in that world. It was about a girl who wasn't capable of having feelings. One day, she meets a boy who teaches her how to feel emotions. One day, that boy breaks her heart. For years, she stays inside her room, writing poems and hiding the new feelings she was taught. One day, another boy meets her. She starts to feel the same connection to him, but she is terrified. She never wants to feel the pain that the last boy put her through again. In the end of the story, he convinces her that it's ok to love, and that you don't always need to hide how you really feel.

I go and put my book away, then I head up to my "boyfriend's" room to see how he is. I still can't believe I'm pretending to be his girlfriend. I also can't believe he kissed me. All day, it's lingered in the back of my mind. Perhaps, in a way, I liked it. For that moment that our lips were touching, I felt safe.

I knock on his door, and I hear him mumble something. A couple seconds later, his door swings open. He only shows his face, and I can barely see the rest of him.

"Y/N, what do you want?" he snaps.

His eyes are watery, and his face is red. It looks like he was just crying.

"I just wanted to see how you were. Can I come in?" I softly asked.

He opened his door wider, and I went in. On his desk, I saw a knife. It had blood on it, but I didn't want to ask. When I turn around, I see Enoch has already closed the door and had his arms crossed.

I sit down on his bed, and he comes next to me. We sit there in silence for a moment, when I decide to speak up.

"Enoch, are you alright? You looked sad," I said, my voice low.

Enoch's POV

Was I really alright? No. I was sitting in here, hurting myself and crying like a baby when she knocked on my door. Would I tell her that? Again, no.

"What would I be sad about? What are you doing in 'ere anyways?" I say, almost yelling.

She looks down. "I don't know," she replies, "I just wanted someone to hang out with."

I roll my eyes. "And why would you want to hang out with me? What can I do that no one else can?"

"Well, no one else is my fake boyfriend," she smiles.

I turned my head the other way, the pain I caused is still there. I haven't told anyone about the cuts on my wrist, mostly because I'm scared they won't care. If I'm being honest, all I really want is someone to care for me.

A moment later, I feel her hug me. I shrug her off, and when I turn and look her she looks confused.

"We don't have an audience, no need to be showing off," I say.

She laughs. I look down and slightly smile. I try not to, but her angelic laugh gets me every time.

"Oh, well I should probably start to get ready for dinner," she says, "just know, if you ever need anything, I'm always here for you. Both as a fake girlfriend, and a real friend."

As she gets up to leave, I realized if I didn't love Y/N before, I definitely do now.

A/N: This chapter was kinda sad to write, I'll be honest. Our poor baby Enoch is depressed! Hopefully Y/N will be able to fix it. And Enoch loving Y/N? This chapter was all over the place! She is also pretending to be his girlfriend, so does that mean Enoch is trying to fake their relationship until they make it? Well, I guess you'll find out next time I update, which will probably tomorrow because I have no life.