dating you // yangyang [ completed√]

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Yangyang was wearing a calm and unconcerned expression on. It was just another day, happily walking alone to get fresh air. His sweet smile went wider by the permission from his friends to excuse him to have some alone time other than doing nothing at the cafe.

A footstep that paused in front of him, it was like a thing that hid and have been avoiding him- his whole expression died down, not even a step were taken. Both frozen in their places. From the toe to the head, he scanned the figure like that so slowly.

Just like deja vu, Chunhua had chills picturing the atmosphere and situation she was in. Just like in that dream. Yangyang was hurt in the inside, he couldn't let it out. He couldn't express he's feeling to see her right in front of him.

Is this how destiny works? Out of many days, out of all the places, out of dates, times, every minute and second that exist- out of billions of people, why does it have to be him? why does it have to be now? why does it have to be in this kind of situation.

At that point, she can finally understand what anxiety meant. It strike through her whole body. Pain. How chills travelled down her spine. The feeling- what it felt of being scared, of being alone, to be abandoned. Of everything, even little things.

This got tense than before, she was quite concerned of herself, unable to speak the first time- again to see him. To meet him eye to eye, in private. There were no one losing or winning in the eye contact they made. Chunhua didn't like to stay like this, as if they were holding grudge on each other but they were just- a something, in between relationships that ever existed, it was a complicated one.
She have been thinking about these lately, Why would they kept it going on like this? Why can't it settle? Why did it existed- happened? Or can it end? To stop everything in time, and go fast forward with their own lives?

An uncontrolled feeling that irritated her so much- the eyes wanting to let a waterfall stream down her cheeks heavily. She bit her lower lip then her inner cheeks, trying to maintain her feelings- not to show so obviously. It made him look away, then a gaze that were much stronger than before were thrown at her.

As if his lips weren't moving, he gave a really low tone in speaking. "Were you done hiding the lie?"

It was silent. Only the sound of birds chirping and wind passing by, the cold air hit her face, making her fix her hair that covered her face. "Bravery and courage must've taken you here." Like giving off a shrug, he continued so seriously. That glare, that look, it was different- it was wrong. It didn't felt like it was him.

He was wrong. As if he believed of such accusations. To her, all he thought of her to track him down. She wasn't as others to care about the same thing- what's hot these days. The details of things. It took up most of her brain space if she did. Just as an example- him. The leave. The reason, what place, who he told to. She doesn't depends on things, doesnt need those things. As she said and wanted, she moved on. Past was past. Present is what leads the future.

His brave ass that attacked her made anger and built in her constantly. Mixed emotions that messed with her, she glared at him- not too strong, not too forced. She wanted to clench her fist- but it showed too obvious, then- automatically she bit her lower lip stronger than before, herself uncontrolled. It felt like her head was about to explode. She never wanted to have any struggles in her life yet she's facing it right now.

"It didnt." Without hesitation she speak up. She stopped between her breath. "I can't see what's coming ahead of me, success.. and you." She trailed off.

There was another unreadable look in his eyes, she was feeling tortured for not knowing what it was. She hates herself for not having another way to end it right away.