D I V I N I T Y

Im getting better, I swear

I like to tell myself Im
Getting better

But
I'm not eating anymore
Or I eat to much and beat myself up because of it
I take showers so hot they leave blisters
I don't do my homework
I seem to forgotten how to sleep

I walk into school, each day,
    B e g g i n g
For a fight
Because I'm
    I t c h i n g
To feel something,
anything

I'm tired of being numb
I'm tired of being stuck

I keep telling myself
That I've gotten better
But the truth is
I've just gotten better at hurting myself without leaving marks