I'm Kind of Sirius (Sirius Black fan fiction)

Chapter 4 : Not together

"Ariel hadn't spoken about her little disappearing act and I hadn't brought it up. She may have just gotten back but we were treading carefully around each other. It wasn't hard to say that i missed when we were at Hogwarts. Everything was so much more simple. So much easier.

We would meet up along with James, Remus, Jordan and Peter and sneak out to Hogsmeade or the kitchens and just act like teenagers; laugh, have fun and don't care about what's happening in the world around them as long as they're happy. It sounds selfish to wish such a thing but it's one I've wished for more than anything in the last few years.

Why does everything have to change as you grow up? When you're young, you take on the big world of school (depending whether you were muggle-born or not, unlike myself who just stayed at home  with my family, unfortunately) then they convince you to leave muggle school and you go to the even bigger world of Hogwarts and then after six years after finally settling into Hogwarts they move you to somewhere even bigger. The real world.

And I don't think there's enough days in anyone's life to adjust to this place.

I sound depressed but this is just how my life really is. I'm not in a relationship, I live with a girl I've been chasing after since I was in sixth year at Hogwarts and my God son was being chased after by the most evil guy in the world. Some say I'm pessimistic, I  say I'm telling the truth.

Anyway, back in the kitchen of Grimmauld Place which I was still living in for reasons I still do not get to do this day, Molly Weasley was cooking food for Ariel, Remus and I because, well, I just don't think she trusted that we were all getting our daily intake of food because of all the jobs Dumbledore was giving us. At least, the one's he was giving Ariel and Remus, i just got the crap job of watching Harry."

"Excuse me!" Harry yelled, a look of offence on his features. I couldn't help but roll my eyes for the thousandth time at my God child. Seriously, the kid needed to grow a pair. Sure, he could defeat Lord Voldemort at the age of one but whenever someone offended him, no, you can't do that now can you?

"Get over it. You didn't like being watched and we didn't like watching you but it was a job Dumbledore gave us and we had to go along with it unfortunately," I said and Harry slumped in his seat. In that moment, he reminded me so much of his father because he really needed to just get over himself. I mean, come on, what seventeen year old can't take a bit of offence? Seventeen year old boy at that. (A/N Omg, Sirius is so sexist, i may have to kill him)

"Now, where were we..."

"Oh, so Molly was cooking her food for us as Remus and I sat at the table. Ariel was still upstairs supposedly getting ready but she had been up there for half an hour now so she was most likely stalled or just naturally took that long to get ready which I don't remember her to in Hogwarts but hey, I have the memory of a goldfish, who knows what she did in Hogwarts that I've forgotten.

"So what's the story between you and Ariel?" Remus asked curiously. It was a question I could tell was bugging everyone but they knew I don't like being asked about my relationships because I've never had a proper one before. It wasn't a sensitive subject or anything, just on I felt quite awkward talking about. I just didn't like mentioning why my lack of relationship was because I had been too busy snogging random girls in the broom cupboard and the room of requirement.

"What's going on with you and Tonks?" I asked back at him and he ground his teeth together. It may not be a sensitive subject for him but it certainly was a nerve. he kept claiming he didn't like Tonks and that even if she liked him 1. he didn't like her back and 2. he was too old for her anyway. he didn't even mention the third fact but I knew it was the biggest reason.