I'm Kind of Sirius (Sirius Black fan fiction)

Chapter 21 : The Lies and Letters of Regulus Black

okay so I feel really bad for leaving after the cliffhanger of the last chapter and I swear the epilogue shall come minutes after this final chapter and basically I'm really sorry for the wait.

Anyways, please enjoy this and please tell me if you do :)

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I married Ariel exactly one month after I proposed. It was amazing. The woman of my dreams was marrying me and she was no longer the same person she had been for a long time over the years. 

It was like Hogwarts Ariel was back. It was like I never lost her. And I love her because she makes me feel like a lovesick school boy every time she walks into the room. 

Everything about hers so perfect, from her beautiful brown hair to the bump in her stomach all the way down to her tiny little feet. 

Yes, you read that correctly. Ariel's pregnant. Only found out a few days ago. I always wanted children, I just went to Azkaban before I could even start my future. That's one thing most people don't think on when doing illegal stuff, not that I even did anything. They never think they'll have to spend years in a jail cell instead of living their lives whilst they're young. 

Some people can be such idiots when they're not thinking right. I almost kind of pity them, I guess. 

It's not until I'm attempting to clean out the house once again (but this time to make it a family house) that I come across the black leather book I found over a year ago. I jab my wand into it, the way I had done years ago and opened it, looking through the pages. Nothing really stands out, it's just an ordinary journal. 

I toss the book back onto the bed as I sigh but I hear a rustle from it, like there's something in it. Digging into the space between the cover and the actual book, I pull out a small note, ripped out from this notebook. 

"JORDAN, I LOVE YOU. I'M SO SORRY, I'VE DONE EVERYTHING TO STOP. WHEN YOU GET THIS, KNOW I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND THAT I'M SORRY BUT IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN YOUR SAFETY OVER MY OWN. -RAB"

I'm confused, that much I know for sure. I look to the very top, looking for a little date that has to be filled in somewhere. 

There's nothing. I flip to the other side. I look in the corner. 

It's filled in. He actually filled it in. 'April 30th'. I can only assume the year as I read the letter. 

Regulus seems to be in trouble or something. I remember that during the year of Jordan's death, Regulus had become a death eater. That would be the year I assume this is from. And what other year did Regulus really have trouble in? The only trouble he seemed to get was from those damned death eaters. 

But the date. The date was before Jordan's death. Obviously she was still alive at that time, otherwise he wouldn't exactly be writing an apology letter to her. Unless he was being regretful but the date proves she was alive. 

I always had thought Regulus loved Jordan. I mean, I honestly wouldn't have allowed him near her if I really didn't think he did. Jordan was like my sister (not literally or else I most definitely would not have let her near my brother) and I had always tried to look out for her. 

And the fact she wasn't alive when Regulus betrayed her kind of helps me sleep at night as long as I don't think of how she's probably rolling over in her grave. 

Maybe, just maybe, Regulus had a reason for everything that he had been doing after her death. Maybe he didn't just leave her, maybe there was actually a decent reason as to why he didn't show up to her funeral and wasn't seen after it. 

Because from the sounds of this letter, Regulus didn't get himself into trouble because Jordan was dead. He got himself into trouble because he was trying to keep Jordan alive in the first place. 

Oh, the irony. How he managed to lose her before he even thought he could. 

Over the next few months, my investigations further as I work whilst still coming home to my loving wife who had officially gotten off due to the growing bump on her stomach. 

Working in the ministry was handy, I could investigate so simply and almost no one would have to know what I was trying to figure out. 

Regulus Black was killed by death eaters. He was killed as he refused to give up the location of Jordan Swan. A mudblood. They wanted to kill her after a death eater at Hogwarts had told them of how Regulus was in love with this mudblood. 

But he loved her, he'd rather lose his life than have her be killed, especially at his own fault. It would kill him, he knew he was never good for Jordan but he was selfish, he allowed himself to love her because that's all he wanted to do and in the end he got both of them killed. 

I remember how sad he was on the night she died. I guess now that I know the irony of everything that happened, but I'm sure he'd rather her have gone that way than at his fault. And at least he knew he would be going soon too. 

He was killed on the morning of the funeral of Jordan Swan. As he tried to make his way to say goodbye to the only girl and only person he had ever loved, he was taken as well. No final goodbye, he was just brought straight to her. 

His body wasn't recovered for weeks until it randomly showed up on the doorstep of the Minister of Magic. 

After I found out all this information, I realised I had learnt one other thing about my brother that I had ne