I'm Kind of Sirius (Sirius Black fan fiction)

Chapter 21 : The final battle

hey guys, so I hope you like this because I'm going to serious extremes to get this done tonight even though I could leave it until tomorrow.

Thanks everyone who's still reading this; I've learnt through this book that I'm not very good at sequels so I understand if you've stopped. But this is one of the last few chapters so if you are still reading, please try and make it :) Thanks

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"It was hard, that was one thing that I knew for definite. And right now I honestly didn't know much so to know that was even harder.

Losing friends is one thing. But losing them all is something else completely. I always thought about things like this during my first few years in Hogwarts. I even thought this before this war happened, only a few weeks ago.

But every time I thought of such things, my mind would quickly tell me that I would always have Ariel and that it would be alright. But I didn't have Ariel. Ariel was gone now, she had joined Voldemort. And right now, that was looking to be the winning side.

I let out a shaky breath as I look all around me trying to find someone familiar. There has to be a Weasley or some kind of person I know around here. I look around to see everyone has seemed to gather in one place. I run up, just in time to catch a scream.

"Harry!" Everyone seemed to be yelling as Hagrid trudged behind Voldemort and his followers. I looked to the boy in the half giant's arms as a tear rolls down my cheeks. This was it. He was my last hope. Even if I had no friends or no girlfriend, I was always going to have him. But he's gone, he left me as well. Just like the rest.

I want to scream out. I want to blame someone for this ending to my supposed fairytale. It's not supposed to end like this. You're supposed to get the girl. You're supposed to have a family. You're supposed to be surrounded by your friends all of the time. Then what was going on now?

No words seem to be processing in my head. I can see the monster's mouth open but no words seem to come out. I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm doing. But all I know now is that I'm running. I'm running to the front, I realise. I don't know why I'm doing it. Everything doesn't seem to be real. It's all too slow, I thought this stuff happened fast but everything was slow. I wanted the pain to be over.

"YOU COWARD!" I scream as I look at the monster in front of me. Tears roll down my cheeks as I look at him, shaking my head. How can he do this without regret? I want the guilt to kill him; I want him to feel the pain I feel. But he smirks. He's happy. He is not annoyed at me for calling him by his true name.

"Ah, if it isn't the last of the Blacks," he says, a cold tone to his voice. He lifts his wand and twists his head. "We might want to end that name, mightn't we?"

"You are nothing but a coward. You just hide behind your followers. Without them you are nothing. You kill people with no regret because you are terrified to face fear again. You are nothing but another one of us hiding behind a mask that's going to fall off and when it does, you're going to need help again. But guess what? All these people around you? What did they do last time you disappeared? They ran, didn't they? What makes you think they care more about you than they do their own arses, you bloody no-nosed freak!"

And I'm sobbing. I hold a hand over my mouth as I feel someone gently touch my back, pulling me back into the crowd before the coward can do something to me. I don't look up. I don't care who it is. If I don't know who it is, maybe I'll forget that I'm surrounded by people. Maybe I'll forget there are other people.

But suddenly something changes. Everyone is screaming and I feel a pat on my back. I look around but there is no one there. But I see a shimmer in the moonlight. An all too familiar shimmer.