FREEDOM | Changbin + Felix

Dinner | sechszehn

Jisung and Minho had already hidden their engagement rings and everyone was now gathered in the dinner table, eating the food Changbin's mom had prepared. Haeun looked a bit uneasy but Ms. Seo and Mr. Seo just shrugged it off since they thought she was just stressed from school stuff because she is part of the student council and a senior. 'She got great responsibilities to carry on her shoulders.' They thought.

In fact she was uneasy because of the way the conversation on the table was taking, leading towards her parents' plans for Changbin.

"You know, Jisung... We're planning on moving for another city, so-..." Ms. Seo started but was cut off by her daughter coughing out loud, she had chocked on her food and was currently with her hands around her neck, coughing. Soon her mother got up and helped her to get back to normal, patting her head before Haeun excusing herself and heading upstairs to her room. The woman proceeded talking after sighing and cleaning her throat. "As I was saying... Next year, Changbin won't be studying with you guys... I know... But please believe me, it's the best for him. We..." She looked at her husband and grabbed his hand, rubbing it with her thumb and smiling, soon looking back to the boys in front of her and continuing to talk. "...As his parents, just want the best for him."

Jisung couldn't believe her words, or at least he refused to. He sighed loudly with watery eyes and all what Minho could do was hug him sideways and try to calm him down. Of course both boys were sad as fuck, but Jisung was more than sad, Jisung was getting depressed about losing his best friend, the person that never judged him, the person that encouraged him to confess to Minho, the person that didn't treat him badly when he came back from Malaysia, the only person that treated him the same way regardless the moment and tried to understand every piece of everything before giving a final thought. The person that, in Jisung's opinion, was one of the nine best in the whole world.

"Uh... Ms. Seo... Can I at least know where to? I want to be able to visit you guys when I get my free time next year..." Jisung finally said something, but Changbin's mother literally just shook her head slowly, meaning a big fat 'no' to Jisung.

"I'm sorry for intruding on your dinner, Ms. and Mr. Seo... We really just came to see if Changbin was okay..." Minho said, holding his fiance's hand under the table, squeezing and rubbing his finger on it so Jisung would understand it as a 'I'm here for you. Don't worry, please calm down.' "...I'm sorry if we made you make more food than the usual because of us..." He released Jisung's hand and stood up, patting the boy's shoulder as a signal for him to get up too. "...But we really need to get going. Your food was delicious! I hope that one day all of us nine together can taste it one more time. Thank you for treating us today!" Both boys bowed and soon Mr. Seo followed them to the front door, leading them until they were out of his home.

'What happened to Changbin?' you must be asking. Well, he didn't even got downstairs for dinner. He excused himself because he had homework and subjects to study so he could keep up when he got back from school. But in fact he just didn't want to face Jisung and Minho after what his mom would reveal them. He preferred to be locked inside his room again, skipping dinner to cry in bed until he slept, like he had been doing all these days, getting even skinnier.
'What about his dream?' the following days, they were all the same dream, over and over, like if the replay button was constantly being pressed on YouTube.

It ended up that Changbin got to school only to do the tests, didn't talk to anyone, was constantly followed by Felix in the hope that one day he would talk to him back. Everyone in their circle of friends was holding back the younger Australian so he wouldn't go to Changbin's home and beat the fuck out of their parents.

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"Today's Christmas evening is so beautiful! Isn't it?" Chan initiated, trying to cheer everyone up, but all what he could get in response was sighs and a sniff. Everyone was gathered outside Jisung's home, looking at Felix's home, waiting for him to get out but soon they received a message on the group chat.

Blonde Koala
I'm sorry guys, I won't be able to make it today.
I'm too comfortable on my bed, I really don't
want to get outta here.

Lee Knows
It's okay, Felix
We're gonna enter your house, then
Chan has a copy of your key, y'know?

J.One
hEY
wHy aRe yOu tELLinG hiM oUr pLan

Mickey
Shut the fuck up both of you

Ahgase
My boyfriend is right
Lix, we're coming for you, okay?

Trot Singer
Yeah
We won't let you alone tonight

Chicken Lover
We love you a lot, Lix!

CB97
We're already in tbh
Can you please come downstairs?
Seen by 8 [23:30]

Felix sighed, ending up going downstairs and showing his feet only.
His face was covered by his hands and he was wearing a big black hoodie, black sweatpants and white socks that had some little ducks printed on them.

"Those are Changbin hyung's, right?" Jeongin started, running to Felix with watery eyes, hugging him with all his strength, not receiving a hug back, but only hearing the latter's scream. A really loud scream, a type of scream that anyone that heard it could definitely decipher that it was pain. Someone was hurt. Something was dead. And it was Felix's heart, hopes, future.

From this day on, Felix have never been the same he was before. He was completely emotionless... He was completely fucked up. He was depressed.

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5 months later.

FELIX'S P.O.V.

This is a new year. It was a new start. Why does it feel like something is holding me back? Why this horrible feeling is still with me? Why do I still walk on school halls as if I was dead? What did I lose? What really happened? What's going on with me? Where's my smile? Wait... My smile is gone... Yeah... My smile is living somewhere else... My smile... He... Is...

*swish*
*screech*
*chiiing*

Ah... Delicious sound... Delicious feeling of this delicious cut on my wrist... It always relieves me... It's so good... What really happened? I can't remember anymore...

Hm... What about this cute red color running down my arms? What a cute vision...

This is the best feeling I've ever had in my entire life...

Why do I feel like it's not? It sure is...

Why do I feel dizzy...?

Why am I on the floor? Am I even at school...?

Great... Here comes Jisung to scold me for being alone. They never let me alone lately...

Yeah... They're right... I should never be alone. I'm crazy. Crazy people need treatment. Why am I even alive then? There's no treatment for me. ha...haha...hahahaha...~

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a/n:
Don't kill me please, I love you guys.
Thoughts?