FREEDOM | Changbin + Felix

Confessions | vier

HyunJin was on fire now. Ever since that boy arrived the class before the lunch yesterday, Changbin was spacing out more than usual. His boyfriend was sitting together - even though it didn't feel like Changbin was actually there - with him, both eating the sandwiches the taller had previously made at home for them.

"Changbin, are you listening to me?" He dragged the smaller's attention, facing him in the eyes, getting closer to him.

"Yeah, sure." Changbin nodded, telling lies, of course.

"You don't seem to, though..." the brown haired boy said, being really straight forward to him. "What was I saying then?" He challenged the other boy, seriously locking eyes with him.

"Something about how you made these sandwiches..." Changbin said, but he didn't even took another bite of it.

"Yeah, but you seem to not even care about it and also it seems that you don't like the sandwich I made for you because you're not even eating it." He stated, making Changbin face the food and pick it up, eating it and finishing everything, even the orange juice that HyunJin also brought.

HyunJin's frown was now relieved, his face becoming brighter and less stressed, him relieving the breath he didn't know he was holding.

"I'm sorry..." He heard the smaller say and felt his hand quietly grabbing HyunJin's. He couldn't say no to Changbin's actions, because they were rare, really rare. He found himself holding back onto Changbin's hand, both lacing their fingers and becoming closer to each other on the bench of the table, him feeling the smaller's head on his shoulder.

"Some times I think you don't really like me, Changbin..." HyunJin stated, sighing right after saying that and feeling Changbin's grip tighten a little more.

"Hey... I'm really sorry for everything I do... I just do it and I don't really think about it... We do fight a lot and I know this is kind of not working anymore. I'm really sorry, HyunJin, but you do deserve a better someone for you... Someone better than me..." HyunJin's heart stopped. He couldn't believe what he was hearing from Changbin.

"...Someone that can really love you more than anything else in the world, not someone like me that was together with you for commodity..." It hurted. It hurted a lot receiving all that in a single phrase, from the person that he most loved in the whole world. Changbin is a dick, he thought. I did all of what I could for us and now this?, he thought again. There were too many things he thought but he couldn't say.

"...I'm really sorry if that seems hard to swallow now, but really, I'm not trying to hurt you, I'm telling you things my sister made me realize yesterday when I was talking to her. I'm sorry but we gotta call this a break. I hope you find someone that loves you the way you deserve." He finalized, releasing HyunJin's hand, waving him a bye with the same hand while he sat up to get out of there. Not wanting to face HyunJin now, because he knew he was crying.

FLASHBACK MODE: ON

"Sis... I gotta vent with you something." Changbin said, getting his sister's attention right away, she was doing nothing in her room, anyways.

"Oh, I thought you didn't need me for anything, Mr. independent..." She teased, shooting him a bright smile and hugging him right after. Just what she didn't know was that he would actually cry. "WHY ARE YOU CRYING?! DID ANYTHING HAPPEN AT SCHOOL?! DID SOMEONE BULLY YOU?! WHO'S THE ONE I GOTTA KILL?!"

"I'm sorry, sis... I... I can't hold this anymore, I'm so sad and I don't know why... N-No one hurt me, I-I j-just..." He couldn't finish up his words, his mind was too full.

His sister's hug tightened as if she was trying to protect him from all the bad in the world, shutting the door with her left foot while backing up inside the room, never letting him go off the hug and, honestly, he didn't want to.