Desolation Row (Frerard)

What Happened...

"When you go
Would you have the guts to say
I don't love you
Like I loved you yesterday"

Media: Ryan Ross and Brendon Urie in the chapter

This chapter will be told in Ryan's perspective
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Brendon and I had always been close. We joked around, hung out, played video games together. We lost our virginities to each other when we were both twenty. I remember that night so well.

Brendon was so gentle and slow. He cared about my comfort. We faced each other on the bed and I sat on top of him, straddling his hips. I slowly sunk myself down on Brendon, desperate noises leaving my pink lips. I moved and gyrated my hips to make him feel good. 

We soon picked up the pace and soon enough, we flipped over and Brendon was thrusting in and out of me at a rapid pace. I moaned and whimpered, pulling him in a heated kiss. Our lips moved in sync as we both got close to our orgasms.

Brendon came first. His hips moved erratically and soon pulled out, coming on my rim. I moaned as he took my length in his mouth and bobbed his head. My legs clamped around him and I gasped for air as I came intensely that night.

But then, Brendon was more distant.

He avoided my gaze and he never seemed to pay attention to me. He always seemed uncomfortable from my presence and just didn't want to talk to me anymore.

He was my best friend and the man I loved. I was upset to find out that he didn't love me the way I loved him. We were always close since childhood. We got through school and college together. I screamed at Brendon and asked why he never loved me back.

He said it was because he loved someone else. 

Sarah Orzechowski. 

She's always been a popular, friendly girl. She wasn't the type of popular girl who was really rude and thought the world should bow down to her; she was the type of popular girl that everybody loved and was really friendly. Everybody wanted to be with her. Me, being a very gay person, thought that Sarah was cool.

I cursed at Sarah's name and loathed the very sight of her. What did she have that I didn't?

Would it be considered stalking if I were to tell you that I knew exactly where Brendon lived and followed all of his social media pages?  That I knew where he worked and all of the places he liked to go to? All of his internet consumption and everything he searches up online?

I love being a part of the FBI...

Sarah's reaction to Brendon's death was priceless. I knew that she would react badly so I wished for Iero to not kill her.

How does it feel, Sarah? That the one man that you loved and held deeply to your heart is now dead? The man who loved you unconditionally and peppered you with praises and admiration. The man who is so handsome and talented in intimacy. He has been stolen away from you, Sarah. You can never see him again and it's all your fault.

Now you know I felt when he fell for you.

I'm glad you ended your life.

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OOOF.
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