Day 5
I sat watching tv with Mickey consumed in his snug leather couch. Josh who presumably just woke up came into the living room plopping onto a single sofa.
"How's mister soon to be groom." Mickey said not moving hid eyes from the tv
"Tired as hell." He said with a loud drawn out yawn.
"Aren't you afraid of marriage?" I asked.
"Unlike some people I care about what I'm doing ten years down the road."
"I care. I just don't want to be tied down."
"Luckily there is no rope nearby for you." Mickey joked.
"Well I mean-'"
"Don't. " he sajd sitting up. "Don't open that can of worms."
"Sorry, I'm going to go eat." I said getting up leaving for the kitchen.
Avery stood over the toaster softly singing to herself.
"You good?" I asked.
"Yeah, need the toaster?"
"No, got any fruit?"
"I think. Check the fridge." She said sitting with her toast and jelly alone. "How'd the meeting with your dad go?"
"Good, yeah. If I have time I might see him again."
"Are you and Spencer okay?" She asked.
"I think so. I think, I needed a friendship."
"Really?"
"Definitely, you know Avery. I didn't leave to get away from you guys."
"Then why?"
I signed sitting across from her. I had never mustered the courage to tell anyone the truth, but Avery really deserved it. I left her without nothing for too long.
"Before Fiona died she told me to take care of Spencer. During senior year, I was probably the most unhappy I'd ever be. I could feel myself closing up. And I knew if Spencer saw me like that again I'd hurt him. I couldn't hurt him again. Especially with what Fiona told me. I had to keep that promise. Even if that meant leaving Spencer."
"But-" she said pausing for awhile. "We missed you." She said tears filling her eyes.
I got up walking behind her hugging her closely.
"Okay, time for food." Josh said walking in. "Av?"
"It's okay. I'm fine; Damn Ra you sure have a lot of good stories." She siad getting up. "I better put on make up anyways."
She left her toast as I realized I was alone with josh.
"I'm not going to yell at you." He said softly leaning over the sink him back to me.
"I know." I said softly looking at the apple I was eating.
"Never really thought we were much friends til you left." He said loud enough for only me to hear sitting beside me.
"Things just never made sense. You leaving; Fiona dying so quick. Everything happened so quick, and I just got angry. So angry. Once you left Spencer came to me. We nearly chased after you if he listened. He was constantly sticking up for you. Like he owed you his love. So for years I taught myself to hate you. When I see you now I don't know what I want."
Out of everyone I knew Josh would give me the brutal truth. If I was him I'd hate me too.
" I miss her." I said my brain completely fried.
