12. All I want

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I woke up with a built in headache smushed between two bodies. I sat up to see Spencer and Mickey I laughed looking at Spencer. He slept with his arm out, his tattoo covered in cling wrap.

I left the party zone everyone asleep in my room brushing teeth. I shut the door staying quite. The door soon opened to the infamous Avery.

"Tough night. The hair's good."

"Thanks. Trying to keep alive." I laughed watching her take Mickey's toothbrush.

"How long are you two gonna play games."

"I'm not ready for action. I came here prepared to deal with everything all at once. Now I wanna wait a little."

The door bell rang repeatedly as loud knocking followed. "Jesus fuck. The neighbors here suck." She ran through Spencer's room downstairs. I followed with haste hearing the loud yelling from inside.

"Calm down. What do you-" Avery said finally opening the door I right behind her. A bottle crashed and she fell back.

I didn't realize what had happened until I saw my dad. "You! You selfish bitch. You're the reason; I am drinking. How could you turn me down." He yelled wildly.

The boys up now ran downstairs. Josh pushing me out the way. Spencer quickly picked me up taking me upstairs were Mickey stayed outside of his room.

Dad's yelling never ceased until I heard the door shut. I only later found out Mickey had called the police. Josh stayed downstairs helping Avery who got glass stuck in her hand.

Spencer sat on the bed as I tried to wrap my head around the situation. "Is he gone?" I finally asked in a short wimper.

Spencer nodded not saying much. "I'm so sorry Ra. I never knew he would have done that." He said frantically.

"No. No this was my fault." I finally said.

"Raven, you know damn well. It isn't your fault for your dad's alcoholic ways."

"Dad's, boy do they suck." Josh said walking in sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Tell me about it." Mickey said with a glass of water and pills in his hands.

"For me?" I laughed.

"Thought it would help." He said handing me an anti-anxiety pill and water.

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I spent the whole day in bed everyone coming in and out. We talked and kept a chill environment Bo was by my side all day going in and out of sleep. After awhile I got up to see what Spencer had started doing

I walked in to see Josh and Spencer eating comic books sprawled everywhere.

"Boy day?" I asked.

"No, I asked one comic question and I got a lecture."

I smiled sitting on the bed. "I think it's cute."

"You have to you're his-" Josh said realizing he messed up.

"Amiga?" Spencer said looking to him smiling at me briefly.

"Amiga?" Josh said looking at me.

"I'm going to find Mickey." I said standing up.

"Check the basement. Usually hangs in there; tell him to get out so we can video game." Spencer said.

"Alright." I said leaving.

I walked to the door which lead to the basement. I touched the door instantly being brought to a bad time:

I was 12, barely able to understand why the basement was always locked. Dad loved being in there saying it was his cave, but once mom died he lived in there. The door was barely open. I knew he was down there, but I just wanted to peek. I pulled the door open to see it was dark. Pitch black. The smell hit me hard; it reeked of alchol. Just like his mouth did recently.

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