Just Dudes Being Guys (or gays) // nomin/jaeno

22. planetarium

my opinion. i believe they actually are in love.
enjoy the chapter.

Jaemin and Renjun high five each other cheerfully at how flawless their recent practice for the talent show was. They discover how they match one another in performing, both of the boys being stubborn and concentrated.

“Duuude, you’re the bestest guy I’ve ever danced with, you are so smooth and sharp"

Renjun smiles widely all sweaty and knackered after the very practise.

“How about Jisung, he’s the pro of dancing”, the younger questions breathing heavily.

“No doubt, he slays but that’s the point! I can’t ever be in sync with him because of his speed and creativity, finally I found someone matching me”

“But wait, I thought I’m better than you”, Jaemin blinks rapidly.

Renjun rolls his eyes and scoffs,
“Stop being a douche, it aint funny at all”

Jaemin hugs him smiling all along,

“Just kidding, you slay it too, moomin-ah”

Renjun hesitates for a second but hugs him back being in a good mood.

They sit down and relax for some time, talking.

“I wonder what kind of performance Jeno is doing with Yuqi, they both pretty much kill as well”

Jaemin faces the boy with confused expression.

“Hmm.. I should ask him, I’m dying to know myself but we barely talk”,

The Chinese boy looks at him slightly afraid to say aloud what he is thinking,

“Hey, Jaemin, aren’t you, like.. I don’t know, aren’t you..”

The younger frowns squinting his eyes,
“Wtf is you talking, I don’t get a single word-”

Renjun takes a deep breath and looks him in the eye,
“I just wonder whether you are jealous or not, about their relationship.. they’re dating you know..”

Jaemin smiles and shakes his head, waving his arms in rejection.

“Nonono, I couldn’t care less”

Renjun stares at him judgingly,

“Oh, reolli? That’s why you keep ogling them whenever they kiss or just slightly interact”

Jaemin hisses looking down,
“Fine.. I’m jealous.. So what?”

“I mean-, I mean when you feel really jealous, and you do, since your eyes literally burn whenever the lovebirds appear, supposedly you are in love”

Renjun raises his eyebrows to highlight his sentence. Jaemin inhales deeply eyes still directed to the ground.

“I know.. I love him”

The older pats the boy’s shoulder pursing his lips and nodding,

“That sucks, bro. I’m sorry”

-///////-

Jaemin knocks on his friend’s door a bit nervous. Many days have passed since he was here last time. The door cracks open and Mrs. Lee appears smiling broadly.

“Jaemin-ah, sweetie, come in, we’ve been waiting for you!”

The boy flashes the lady a big smile,

“I’m sorry I made you wait, but I didn’t know you returned..”

He hears the sounds of someone dashing down the stairs while exchanging polite questions with Mrs Lee. Very excited and smiling Jeno appears in front of him and hugs the boy tightly much to his surprise.

“Jaemin, I missed you so much. Also, it’s mom’s birthday. I’m really happy we are celebrating together”

The said boy’s eyes widen as he turns to his friend’s mom and back to Jeno.

“Why didn’t you tell me? I would bring a present! Now I’m ashamed I came without it, you idiot”, he pinches Jeno’s side frowning.

“Sweetheart, just seeing you is a huge present, never mind”, the woman lovingly strokes the boy’s hair.

They just eat and talk, only him Jeno, his younger brother and his mom. Mr Lee is absent due to his workload and Mrs Lee herself apparently was visiting her house for only one day.

“Why don’t you stay with Jeno, dear? He is living all by himself, and I’m afraid he’s too lazy to eat decent food. I know you take good care of him”

The two boys awkwardly exchange glances and Jaemin feels a lump in his throat while speaking.

“I’d love to.. But.. uhhh.. my aunt got ill and I should take care of her instead”, he averts his eyes to be met with Jeno’s sad ones.

“Ohh.. you’re the most precious boy, Jaemin-ah”, Mrs Lee chimes putting her hand on her chest in empathy.

-///////-

“Hey, I’m glad you came.. But you’re not stayin for long, are you?”, Jeno strokes the younger’s hair gently as they sit opposite to each other on his bed.

Jaemin smiles wearily,
“You look like your mom, and behave like her most often. So much care”.

Jeno beams happily slightly pinching the younger’s cheek,

“Noone in this world relates to the word “care” more than you, Jaemin. You’re more mom to me than my actual mom”

The boys laugh cheerfully and silence falls between them, as the older just rubs Jaemin’s arm smiling. They both probably discover that something changed between them, and they can’t be the same. Unlike they used to be just a month ago - joking too much, touching too much, talking too much, behaving like crackheads too much. They are a bit awkward and cautious, which is absolutely strange to both of them.

“Hey.. by the way, I wanted to know what song you and.. Yuqi are dancing to”

Jaemin tries really hard to say her name casually but probably fails.

The older instantly blushes looking down, causing his friend to stiffen in anticipation.

“It’s.. that planetarium dance, from La-la-land, have you watched it?”

Jaemin indeed has watched the movie, but he regrets it so much at the moment, remembering how sweet and romantic that scene was. His mind doesn’t want to imagine them instead of Mia and Sebastian, as if protecting his heart from suffering.

The honey-haired boy smiles to himself shaking his head,

“Of course I have. I love this movie. I even cried at this scene”

To the boy’s surprise, Jeno starts to sound guilty again,

“It wasn’t my idea, it was her choice. She loves the movie so much..”

It makes the younger more sad though, as he just  stares at the wall trying to handle the flood of emotions inside.

“That beautiful dance and.. and kiss at the end”, he mutters to himself and smiles.

Apparently, when one feels unbearably heartbroken, their heart uselessly fights to survive, which shows up in the form of a sad smile.

i cried at that scene too.

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