Just Dudes Being Guys (or gays) // nomin/jaeno

45. priorities

I noticed Jeno puts his hand on Jaemin's shoulder and waist a lot, this is so cute and he's protective. k, enjoy the chapter.

"Jaemin, are you nuts? What do you mean you wanna return to that lousy city where you're gonna just work at some convenience store or in best case as a dance teacher", Renjun points a finger at the younger boiling with anger.

"I don't fucking want anything in this life. At this point I don't care about any shit. I just wanna kiss my mom and cuddle with her again", he mumbles monotonously taking a sip of the hot beverage with giant bags under his eyes.

"Fucking Lee Jeno, he used to be my best friend now I hate his guts!", the older grabs his head and starts kicking Jaemin's plushies, causing them to fall off the bed.

"Don't hurt my plushies, you moron", the latter kicks him frowning, "and stop saying this shit about Jeno, I told you I don't blame him. It's just life, no one is guilty"

"Stop protecting him. Look, you shouldn't leave. Why are you dumping me?", he pleads and pushes the boy.

"You have Hendery", he finishes his coffee and crumples the paper cup in his hand.

"Okay, let's not-, look, you gotta stay with us and try to enter the university of arts. At least try, please", Renjun connects his hands in a pleading position in front of him.

The boy finally gives in puffing his cheeks out, "K, but I'll go back home as soon as I pass the exam"

-///////-

Jaemin spends the week isolating himself at home watching movies and anime, playing games and doing nothing, constantly pushed by Renjun, who comes to visit him and talks about his high plans. The chinese boy includes the younger in them as well so as to encourage him to prepare for the upcoming exams. Jaemin attends the rehearsals where he got used to seeing Jeno with Minjoo and keeps rejecting Wonyoung's requests to go somewhere with her after the practice. He also keeps postponing his visit to Jeno's house, even though the older offers him to stay over one last time everyday.

He lies on his bed surfing his phone when it rings, Jeno's picture popping on the screen. The boy's eyes widen and he picks up, "Hey"

"Hi, Jaem. How are you doing?", his voice is so tender and caring that the younger automatically smiles upon hearing it.

"I'm okay as always. How bout you?", he wraps the blanket around his body tighter, feeling suddenly cold again, remembering about him leaving the country.

"You know, mom asked if you're crossed with me, since she's been waiting for your visit for ten days.. And since I'm leaving soon.. I'm just counting minutes left to spend with you, while you're avoiding me"

Jaemin lets a deep sigh, "Listen-"

"No, I understand you. I blame myself as well. You can hate me if you want, I told you many times I hate myself. But our friendship.. we've been so close all these years, we shouldn't just end like this", his voice gets shakier as he talks.

The honey-haired boy touches the bridge of his nose closing his eyes, "Okay. I'll be there in half an hour"

-///////-

"My child, I missed you like crazy!", Mrs Lee squeezes the boy in a tight hug then looks at him pouting,
"Why didn't you come earlier, don't you love me anymore?"

"I don't love you, I adore you. I'm super sorry for not coming earlier.. I was really busy.. preparing for entrance exams", he chuckles and flashes the woman the sweetest smile he can.

He shifts his eyes to Jeno, who stands there grinning, and steps to him with a little smile, "Hey, idiot"

Suddenly the black-haired boy grabs him by waist pulling the flustered boy into a tight embrace and he tentatively hugs him back. Jaemin tries to pull back after some seconds, but the older doesn't let him, hands locked firmly around him.

"Jeno, dear, I know how you missed him, but you're gonna hurt the poor child, no need to break his bones"

Jaemin pats the boy's spine, giggling nervously, "Now now, she's right. I need my bones"

Jeno finally lets him free and the latter pretends to be choking for air, "He's such a sadist, you should isolate him from society"

"I'm already pretty much anti-social", he mumbles and purses his lips.

They head to the huge guest room and Jaemin raises his eyebrows in question but the older just winks with a smile. They go inside and the boy's mouth drops at the table, which almost breaks from the weight of delicious food on it. He examines the meals and snacks and to his surprise all of them happen to be his favorite ones.

"Oh my.. Did you prepare these all-", he turns to Mrs Lee and she shakes her head pointing at her son.

Jaemin feels a pair of hands on his shoulders and turns his head to the side as the older leans in smiling at him.

"Help yourself, my Nana. This is the least I could do to pay back for all you did"

They sit around the table and before eating, Jaemin makes sure that Jeno prepared all the food properly, asking multiple questions.

"Did you boil the noodles beforehand? Did you put enough spice?"

The older nods to the hundredth question he asks and sighs in relief when Jaemin finally extends his hand to the dish but he turns to him again, "Did you-"

"Just try it, for the fuc-", the older looks at his mom and coughs, "I mean, god's sake!"

Jeno stuffs the noodles into the boy's mouth causing him to choke a little and he pushes the boy trying hard not to laugh with full mouth in front of the woman. Jaemin chews it thoroughly then he exclaims in bliss.

"Oh my gaawshh, this tastes as heaven"

The three chatter cheerfully feeding one another, singing and laughing at some stupid soap operas on TV. Jeno's mother reminisces the times when the boy was baby and says that he hasn't changed since then, wiping the tears that start to gather in her eyes. Jeno rushes to her, hugging and kissing her multiple times.

Jaemin stares at them with a little smile and his mind starts to draw images of him being the part of the older's family. He knows that Jeno's other sibling are also amazing, while his only close people are his parents and aunt. How would it feel like to spend a whole life with these amazing people who have become the second family to him? Even though it seems so abnormal and against the standards of society, isn't being married to the person one loves supposed to be the first priority in their life?

But he realizes that it's never going to happen, remaining a dream that will never come true.

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