Just Dudes Being Guys (or gays) // nomin/jaeno

41. mystery of love

this chapter is full of surprises. enjoy.

"Why'd you need a boyfriend if you already love someone?"
Hendery leans against the door his hands crossed and stares at the boy judgingly.

"He doesn't love me.. I mean.. He does, but we just can't be together. It's complicated"
Jaemin sighs heavily and shifts his eyes down.

"Then move on, what's the problem?"
The older shrugs as if speaking of the most casual issue like throwing away an old phone.

"Have you.. ever loved? Because the way you regard love is too simple"
The honey-haired boy looks at the older smiling and shaking his head, shocked at his reckless attitude.

Hendery blushes a little, ashamed by this criticism and sits on the edge of the bed, facing Jaemin.
"I don't know. If you're so sure you're in love, then tell me what it is, why you love that guy"

Jaemin's eyes travel around the room as he starts reminiscing Jeno and a smile appears on his face.

"This is so amazing.. I can't tell when I fell in love with him, because it feels like we've always been together. Like I loved him my entire life and previous lives. I just know that I don't remember my life before him, just in some blurry lines. I call him ugly kid, because I think he looks like a dinosaur"

Jaemin pauses a little and laughs, as the boy in front scratches his head and raises his eyebrows.
"How you went from eternal love to his ugliness.. what?"

Jaemin waves his hand in denial,
"No, but at the same I think he's attractive. He's just unique. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, but he's different to me. He has charms and cuteness, and he can be hot very often. Some people are just stunningly attractive, like you are, some are just adorable. He's so adorable. Every little thing he does, every little expression on his face is just adorable, and very sincere. He's so naive and is a terrible liar. He would kiss me again and again and at the same time he'd be extremely shy doing that. We kept blushing and staring at each other all the time but we both had this feeling inside. Love. He loved me when we were children, i loved back. I remember his confession even though he's forgotten it, or just pretends like that", the boy takes a deep breath closing his eyes as his face turns sad again.

"He said 'My heart loves you. It beats like crazy when you smile'. Isn't it just so amazing? Children can love, children can be gay, it's natural. People don't understand this. We were gay, and we played with toys, watched cartoons and were in love, cuddling, kissing, touching. Most definitely in love"

The boy falls silent looking at the side but Hendery doesn't speak up, sitting there with gaping mouth and breathing unevenly. He tries to form something with his lips but fails a couple of times.

"I just-, This is so touching. You really love each other.. and I've never met or even seen such pure love in my life"

He bites his thumb, deep in thoughts, "But why does he treat you like this, if he loves you..?"

Jaemin shakes his head and sighs,
"I don't see anything bad about him, even if he breaks my heart. But again, this is not his fault. It's these family issues and stupid society"

"I don't know, my family is okay with me being bisexual, maybe they hope I end up with a girl, since I'm more into them", Hendery chuckles and gains a shocked gasp from the boy.

"Are you really? The way you're horny for me proves it opposite"

Hendery winks at him and smirks, "You're underestimating your looks, babe. The reason I want boys sometimes is such ethereal beauty and tempting cuteness like yours, that none of girls out there have"

Jaemin blushes furiously and hits him slightly,
"Ugh.. stop it. But it seems like you basically judge people from their looks. I told you, you're not in love with me. You're driven by desire"

"You're also really intelligent for your age, Jaemin. Everything you say is true. I can't help admitting I don't love anyone"

Jaemin rubs the boy's hand caringly, "Don't worry, one day you're gonna find your true love"

They smile at each other sincerely and Jaemin stands up turning to the door,
"I gotta go. But before I leave lemme prepare you some food"

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"Hendery is so handsome and you lost him. I can't believe it", Renjun mutters as the younger's head rests on his  tummy.

"I don't love him, he doesn't love me. What's the purpose of being together then?", Jaemin shrugs, eyes closed and smiling, "Btw, how do you know each other?"

"Studied together at dance school back in China", Renjun caresses the boy's hair and his hand shakes a little.

"So he was popular among girls? But never loved anyone", the younger looks at his friend who gulps and stutters a bit.

"Did he- really s-say that he never loved anyone?"

Jaemin squints his eyes and straightens up quickly,
"Yes, is something wrong, moomin?"

"Nothing",
Renjun smiles and chuckles weirdly. Jaemin stares at him for a while, as the older scratches his neck and clears his throat.

"No.fucking.way", the honey-haired exclaims as a sudden realisation strikes him like a storm.

"What?", Renjun blinks rapidly and his mouth drops.

"Is there anyone not gay in this freaking world?", he hits the chinese boy's lap and starts giggling hysterically causing him to squirm and blush.

"Jaemin, wtf you're talking again this is not funny, stop being a weirdass", he hits the said boy with the pillow and frowns.

The younger closes the gap between their faces and looks right into the eyes of Renjun and they start to twitch as well as other muscles of his face.

"Na-ah-ah", the younger points a finger at the boy's face moving it in rejection.

"Lonjinni, it seems to me you're pretty gay and head over heels for Hendery"

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