Broken

Chapter five

Sophia's POV

I leave school with tears in my eyes , luckily Luke got told to stay behind for detention so I could get home , I really don't know why I showed Calum my scars and cuts , like he would care anyway , no one ever has and no one will.

I walk down the road and look to my left to see the little corner where Luke attacked me , I sigh loudly and walk back home. I unlock the front door and throw my bag down , I turn on my phone and read the latest text from mum.

" Hey honey , I just wanted you to know we're gonna be on this trip for some more time , we're not sure how long but how's everything down there ?

I reply back to her and sit down on the sofa, I know that even if my parents were here I wouldn't tell them anything about my self harm or abuse but to know there at home and with me would make me feel slightly better but in their minds business comes first. It's always been like that , even when I was a toddler they'd get people to baby sit me while they went away , nothing's changed.

I always used to think they hated me and just wanted to be away but then I saw the paper work on the desk and saw that the money they were earning was big and that's what bought all of my things which I am grateful for.

I pull out my blade and swirl it round for a couple if minuets , it's such a small thing but I could end life's in a split second and thinking of that is actually quite scary. All I ever dreamed about as a kid was being happy with an amazing family and no worries but when I grew up , it all changed. I found out there is stuff to worry about and even one person can change or life forever , whether that's good or bad. I pull the blade to my wrist and slide it along , letting the blood slowly drip , I copy the action on my other arm and then put the blade back in my bag.

I walk to the kitchen and clean my arms from blood. I pour my self some juice and sip on that whilst listening to some music. When I'm comfy and watching films or listening to music that's when I find my escape , my escape from this world , people say no body's life is perfect but at the same time no body can prove that either , you only live in your body , yes you can change it with surgery or a bucket load of makeup but some people don't like the idea of that. Your born yourself and through the whole of primary your happy and bubbly and living but when it gets to high school everything changes , someone will say something horrible about you and you'll re think everything and I think that's really stupid.

I would totally love to be my self around people , well my old self , the self that was happy and bubbly and smiling but that all disappeared two years ago and was taken over by my sad self which is always my mood at the moment. People say always be yourself but how can you when people kick you down , like a few people you can deal with but a whole school , not so much.

Calum's POV

I walk out of school and around the back to meet Ashton and Michael because Luke's got detention for being a idiot.

" Hey Cal " Michael smiles

" Hey , you alright Ash ?" I ask looking at Ashton who's sitting on the curb with his head in his hands.

" Uh yeah just tired " he replies and rubs his eyes. " Wait Cal , have you been crying ?" Ashton asks

" Uh yeh " I sigh

" What happened ?" he asks

" Sophia , I walked out of class and she came out of the toilets looking super pale and ill , i uh held her arms but she pulled away in pain. So I demanded to see her wrists , she gave in and pulled her sleeves up and she had little tiny scars and scabs " I sigh and let a tear escape

" IM SO FUCKED UP !!!" Ashton yells and kicks the bin then just breaks down.

" Whoa ash what's wrong ?" Michael asks

" We all know Luke's the one who is more violent but its just as much as our fault as his , we never stopped and at points we joined in , we caused her to be un happy to the point where she feels like dying is the only way out " he cries

" I know " I sob " Shes never gonna forgive us " I add