The Void

Self-worth?

Arise from ashes of self hatred or wallow in self pity?

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Megaira just as her name depicted was holding a grudge again.She was short in stature,short of temper,heart-like head with strawberry red hair that was quite long and curly,mismatched eyes that always seemed to glare at anyone and everyone.Her child like delicate features contrasted greatly with her burdened heart.

Hans had promised to take her horse riding but once again he had failed her.She always craved her big brother's company no matter how he was a jerk* sometimes.What was taking him so long?Treated always like a child she was-- an enraged child.Well,when Megaira set her mind on doing something she ensured she did it and her overprotective brother's absence would not stop her from getting her ride.

She headed to the stables with not so much as a second glance to anyone she passed.Some mares were being groomed but she wanted only one graceful stallion--her Sophos.Sensing her,he brayed.It seemed he had missed her just as she had missed him.

"How about a quick ride Sophos?"She asked him as she straddled herself on him.Some servants strapped her safe as she took her leave.Sophos had the grace she lacked however their minds seemed to be in sync* as they went on.As if sensing Megaira's need to rewind,the horse sped on.She had always been self conscious of how she looked.She looked like no princess and people always reminded her of it.If only letting go would come naturally to her as riding Sophos.

Sophos must have sensed some unseen danger for he became all restless.Not even Megaira's calming pats worked on him.He then stood still as if listening then sped to the other direction making Megaira fall.What had got into her horse?

She was all dirty and felt like dirt pun intended.Megaira could bet her knee and elbow were scraped.Her hair had leaves sticking out.Her ride back was nowhere to be found.

"You can ride with me.That is if you don't mind.A most intrusive voice said from behind.

Stealing a glimpse almost made her eyes bop out.A man who seemed like one of those perfect sculptures was staring at her.His well built form settled on a midnight black stallion.Why was he staring at her like that when she was not worth a second glance.

"When you stop gawking at me,tell me if you want a ride?"The man said letting out a smile that did not reach his eyes.

He has to be blind or something.Cut yourself some slack its just a ride you look all lost like always.Her mind bombarded her with those thoughts but she could not help but flush.

"Yes I suppose you can get me home."She said in her "small" voice.
"And where is home?I know not everything." He replied smirking at her.

Feeling all stupid,she flushed again as she directed him to Hans' palace.She could swear she had seen a hint of evil amusement as he saddled her onto his horse.

"Let's get you home now.Name is Poseidon how about yours beautiful?"He said as he set off to see Hans and what a surprise he would be bringing along.

"Poseidon as in the sea god?Call me Megaira."

"What do you think beautiful?"He shot back as the rode on.

She knew it was silly of her but this Poseidon,sea god or not,was building her self confidence.Question is would she embrace herself as she was?With flaws and all?

Nightmares sometimes start out as promising sweet dreams

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Reana,

I had never slept so peacefully in like forever.Well,when there's no peace in your reality sometimes even dreams don't give an escape route.Anyway,I felt almost good as I lay on that bare ground.My body was not at the state of being called re-energized but at least I was feeling way too better.Now,all I needed was to wash that grime on me.Then it dawned on me that I couldn't.I was still on the run and not even a good night sleep would change that.

I was enjoying my alone time as best as I could--by just laying there.My mind was going through what I had encountered for the last two days and I let out a throaty laugh.Not because I felt I had some bravado but because I was shocked to have survived such terrifying moments.I always survived even when i wished otherwise from time to time.

I had an eerie feeling that I was safe here.I would stick around till nightfall then I would journey on.I would have anticipated leaving if I was going to somewhere in particular but no I was just running from them.

Ever felt like you can't stand yourself? Well,that's how I felt.I had been turned 'inside and out' so many times that I hardly knew me.People claimed that it was difficult letting go but I was more than ready letting me go.

"Who knows! I might have been led to this cave to be used all over again!"I shouted to an empty cave.Question is was I?

No complacency...no one is a juggling ball waiting to be thrown up,sideways or down.

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Monday blues!!!! I feel appreciated by every read....We all worth in one way or the other....okay I ain't no philosopher but smile up for being you ....
Love J...