The Void

Dire Want

Want....how it changes us....how it makes us unrecognizable even to thyself

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Reana,

Sleep was supposed to be one's escape from the gory reality but let's say my 'dreamworld' haunted me as well.I had this insane need to reach out to sir glassy eyes even when he had promised me hell. Twas ironic how a broken soul reached out to an even more broken soul.For solace?I wondered.

By my own right, I was a broken girl who had restrained from feeling.However,there was this urge to connect and I couldn't help but wonder about him.He had ghosts in his closet,that's for sure. I wanted to unravel this riddle that was -Alex.

"Sleepy head awakes!!"The smooth sinister voice made me jolt from my internal tantrums.I was not surprised in the very least.He had this unusual timing-I guess I would just have to get used to it.

"Don't tell me you were here watching me with those hawk eyes of yours."I croaked. It was unnerving being watched by the very person who had haunted my dreams.

"Why would I?You ain't no princess you see...just some scruffy old hag."He spat the words out with so much venom.What in the world had I done to him!Ouch,that actually hurt.

I know I was all skin and bones but to be called an old hag!!That was just an over limit.My balled fist found its way to his high cheekbone.It caught him by surprise-his face inches away from mine.The glassy eyes lit up from the impact.Rage danced in his grey pupils in a somewhat mind blowing charade.
"You just didn't dare!"He said as his hands caged me on the bed.I couldn't move nor turn.I was therefore forced to look him dead in the eye.

I ought to be scared but I was mesmerized by his every action.He could kill me by a snap of his hands but all I could think of was letting my hands stray all over that strange gold coloured hair.

"Oh I just dared."I said as I mentally face palmed myself.Why didn't I think before talking at times.

Don't blame for wanting that fiery fire in his eyes.

He was now hardly an inch away from me.His breath hot on my face,his lips almost on my quivering ones.I bet my face had paled as I anticipated his next move.His eyes...I could hardly get mine of them.I saw his walls threaten to crush down as his face evolved from that 'corpse' he once was to a 'dynamite' that was on the verge of exploding.

He looked glorious and I was tempted to lean in for a kiss from this predator.There was nothing carnal about my want-more like a yearning to connect with him.

He blew the stray strands of my midnight black hair of my face as he gingerly scurried away from me.His face a blank mask.His lips thinning out as if nothing had happened.Oh and his eyes 'died' as their ghostly glassy look reigned.

"Stay clear of me. "He hissed at me

"Last time I checked it was you breathing fire on me."I quickly countered.

He knew I had a point so he left me as he banged the door on his way out,leaving me and my disturbing thoughts.

What was it with him?More importantly what was wrong with me that I yearned for his presence this much.

I detested anyone who invaded my personal space but with him I hardly knew me as I allowed myself to drown in those eyes of his.

I wanted him

Evidently he wanted me too

The thing was how did we "want"each other ?

As always the monster I so hated would mock me back to reality-Mr violet eyes.His tormenting images only made me hate him the more.Although I hated him,he is the one who made my thoughts of Alex become a maze.

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He hurried out of her presence.Hating how the curtains fell at her slightest command.She reminded him of his own sister who had been butchered by the very gods he was serving.Her resistance,her defiance evoked not the 'brotherly love' but more.Love,lust,a sense of protection or a combination of all three?

He went on with his daily duties as a cup bearer to Athena.Call it his punishment-to serve the one who had shuttered his hope,his life.

He laughed not but the very thought of the caged birdie caused a smirk to appear on his face.

"Mother earth must have revolved to cause such an expression on your face."One of the servants teased Alex.

"Call it an immense want for that which I cannot have."Alex surprised himself by answering.

"Tis a miserable feeling..Alex."The servant tried to console Alex probably mistaking what he felt as loss.

Wanting not to talk Alex dismissed the other servant.He knew not what he had become.It was as if she had an on and off switch to his being.She was
sparking his human side alive

But there were so many buts...

So many dead ends

So many barriers

So many losses

He wanted that which was not his...

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